Thanks for your words and verses of wisdom everyone. I have prayed and prayed about it and although i dont completely forgive myself i am getting there. The guy is moving to a different country in six weeks so it with give me space and he wont be in my life to remind me. I have rejoined our churches teenaged girls bible study so i wont be alone. I really only have one christian friend and hes constantly there which is good. So its onwards and upwards from here.

God Bless,
Chelsey