heey ,well i think many people struggle with those feelings ,about two years ago i got bapticed and totaly gave mt life to christ but after that moment i totaly run away from him ,and like what you said the things like school friends stuff like that ,it so easy to feel those things instead of God,but i believe God wants to break trough these things and come back in youre life,seek him in things like praying and talk it over with people who you can trust and love to lord to! and you remember that story in the bible were the lost son is comming back to his father thats the same with us good luck on your way!