Been in your situation -- and I still am. I offer for my childs father to let us know when he would like to meet. He'll call and take us for breakfast or to the lake. He's pretty sporadic, but I try to make it all work.

I still love him, but I see God working in my heart and his life. But i have to just trust God as to where He takes us.

As far as the children knowing their father. I don't force it, but they do live with me. As they get older he gets the away visitation -- I'm feeding now,so the baby stays with me.

This is a tough battle and our emotions really take account in it all. But I see I am blessed with 2 beautiful girls --why God chose me - I have no clue. But He did and now I am their mommy. They're beautiful and I have to give my life to God each day.