Like Shemaiah said "get back into His word"...God knows your heart, just ask for wisdom and forgiveness.
He is faithful and He will be more than happy to have you seek him again.
God bless you and keep you, may He shine His light upon you!

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Psalm 126:5,6
Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy.
He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him.