Hello there, Jonno here, Firstly I promise you this: You're not alone! I too have this problem, don't think for one minute that those people who go to church are good, faithful Christians... far from it, the important thing is what is inside your head, and what you belive in your heart. I too don't ever hear God in my head or the holy spirit. You need to trust thats all Trusting is what the important thing in Christianty is! He will lead you in the right paty, thru prayer, thru church thru whatver way suits YOU and YOU alone!
God Bless you for coming on here and sharing to us, and seriously thank you for sharing your thoughts!! I hope you find peace in your faith, keep the prayers going! Talking to God is exactly what he wants, he wants you to need him, he wants you to ask for help! He died on the cross for us to help him!
God bless

Love Jonno
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