Am I Cursed?

[peacebestill]

I have been crying all night because I remember when people use to call me evil; I didn't know why would they say that at first, but since SO many people have said it, I'm starting to believe it. I'm nice as can be but as I got older, I my past played into my remembrance, I did a lot of evil things back when I was younger. The first time I got called evil is when I was with my friend (At the time) e were all hanging out, then we started talking about the bible and what it means and comparing Johova witness and Christian belief together. I remember getting upset because I felt like they were all against me, (for what reason? I can't remember) So I started to be stand offish and to be myself, I had a some paper and a pen so I started to draw random stars, then one of the girls said we should pray; but I told them that I already prayed, then she looked at me and got frighten; she and the other girls said they seen a dark spirit passing my face, they all got up and ran away from me; at that time I was SO confused and scared myself, I didn't know what they was talking about. That night was literally the worse night of my life. I started to really question myself am I really evil? The thought made me seek Jesus fearfully. I the time I was about 18 or 19. I always known I was very odd and different but to believe that I was evil just made me hate myself. Since then more than a couple people called me evil and said I had bad spirits following me. A couple people even had dreams about me and said they were always bad dreams. Guys I'm really scared right now, I do not know what this could mean. Another example is when, My friends step mom was praying for her son because at the time he said he was hearing voices but I didn't know at first, So as she was praying, I wanted to know if everything was OK so I checked on them, as soon I went in she told me to leave and that she was praying, I nervously said Oh, I'm sorry; She called me evil for that. but my intentions were good.. I really do not know what to do here, I feel like something isn't adding up. I did have a dream once that my eyes were really black, looking demonic but I do not know if that means anything. And last night, I was messing with my boyfriend while he was sleeping only to do it as a playful thing, He woke up out of his sleep; And said " What's wrong with you?.. Evil!" I swear my heart hasn't stopped every since then. I cried all last night because I'm REALLY tired of people saying this about me.

If I made anyone afraid reading this I'm sorry; I'm really really scared right now. Am I evil and not know it? I prayed and prayed for Jesus to forgive me. I do not want to be evil or have people see me in that way.

What can I do?

(I am not posting this because of Halloween, I do NOT care about Halloween, I REALLY need help!)

 

[blue_ladybug]

peacebestill, you cannot let your past define your present or your future or who you are now!! We ALL have done stupid things in our pasts that we regret. God knows I regret every stupid I've done and continue to do. Let go of the past, keep the negative comments in the past as well, and live for today!! You have long ago been forgiven by God. Make yourself deaf to the negative opinions of others, because what they think of you does not matter. It is what GOD thinks of you that is important, and I have it on good authority that he thinks you're pretty awesome!!

Keep praying and ask God to cover you with his hedge of protection. Don't let anyone make you feel like you're a bad person.

 

[peacebestill]

Thank you so much! This REALLY means a lot Thank you! God bless you!!

 

[schoolofyoungprophet]

Early days I did lot of stuff,envoled with ppl I shouldn't have,seen lot of bad stuff n lot of bad stuff has happened to me.but u know when God found me the voices,or what other ppl spoke about me started to fall on my deaf ears cuz I knew what Christ had done to me. Sometimes finding a friend who will encourage u in faith will b always helpful ,I mean was helpful to me.
Trust me we are all evil,with out his grace thru his son we r in big dung lol.focous ur life in seekin God,u will b alright! Anyways thought u felt loved today!

 

[peacebestill]

Thank you both for your positive words. I just feel alone. and Yess I DID feel love today and until that thought came up again, And I started to feel really, really down and heavy on myself

 

[schoolofyoungprophet]

Let me give u a link to one of my fav song.Todd Agnew - Still Here Waiting - YouTube

 

[peacebestill]

Thank you, I'm gonna check it out right now

 

[Jakob]

I feel bad for you, I dont get why they said you're evil. You're not.
I think we all have sinned, and yeah, the past is in the past.
"When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me. Speaking words of wisdom, Let it be". .

 

[purpose]

you have to becareful for what you think and say about yourself and do not let other people label you in any other way. get into the word of God and start renewing your mind. the mind is the battlefield yet God knows your heart!!!!! if you start feeling scared or fear that is not of God and start casting any imagination or ungodly thought to him . God will help you . Put the armor of God sweetheart. Start speaking scriptures out loud if need be. Jesus did when he was tempted by the enemy.Its important to know and realize what is of God and what is not. The enemy does and will use those friends and others close to you although they may not realize it themselves. stay strong memorize scriptures . Enemy is good at bringing up the past also that is a way he tries to get to us. If you asked for forgiveness and are saved and you know you are forgiven . Fight back with words of knowledge . I hope this helps!!!!!! LOVE & PRAYERS

 

[peacebestill]

Yes this did help ALOT thank, thank you, thank you, thank you very much! I really appreciate it. Be blessed!

 

[Yet]

I feel bad for you, I dont get why they said you're evil. You're not.
I think we all have sinned, and yeah, the past is in the past.
"When I find myself in times of trouble, mother Mary comes to me. Speaking words of wisdom, Let it be". .

not trying to rain on anyones encouraging words but Paul, of the Beatles, was talking about his own mother, Mary in Let it Be.

Try 'when I find myself in times of trouble, my Lord Jesus comes to me, speaking words of wisdom, sets me free, let it be'.

 

[JDecree]

Can you tell us anything about the backgrounds of the people who keep saying this, namely their denomination/religious views...you mentioned Jehovah's witnesses

 

[twofeet]

Truth sets people free: After the fall God did NOT curse man...neither did he curse woman....but he did curse the ground.

So who are these people who THINK they have the power to curse people? Is that not arrogance itself! To do something even God himself did not do? Dear sister stop listening to the LIES of these people!!!!! And they ARE lies! Are there "evil" people in this world? There are people that DO evil and that's why IF they repent they are forgiven. Can you not see the difference between what a person DOES and who a person IS? We are made in the image of God!!!!!!! We have attributes straight from our heavenly Father. Do we do stuff that's not good? YES!! But God loves UNconditionaly...........what we do NEVER effects His love to us. So we repent, accept His forgiveness then FORGIVE OURSELVES other wise we are stepping in Gods shoes "saying it the way it is, judging ourselves (and usually with a lot less love)". Fallen people can NEVER define who you are........they only see dimly.......only your Heavenly Father can tell you who you are and you will be surprised at the difference!

 

[dcontroversal]

Trust Jesus and believe he has saved you, forget the past and serve God today....Paul, who wrote almost half of the N.T. said the following....

1. When I go to do good I find a law that evil is present with me
2. I do the things I said that I would not do
3. I don't do the things I said I would do
4. I am a wretched man and number 1 chief sinner among men

If you have honestly trusted Jesus as your savior then disregard what the people around you say....as far as dreams...everyone has crazy dreams occasionally and keep your eyes upon Jesus and he will deliver you every time.....!

 

[peacebestill]

Thank you so much!! Thank you guys for everything

 

[Ann-childoftheKing]

Sweet child! Everyone is right here....do not listen to what others are saying-ask them to stop calling you evil! Jesus took all of your sins on the cross!! The past is gone dear.....if that were not true, then what purpose was the cross?! We all have bad dreams from time to time-that's normal. Surround yourself with positive people. And listen to good christian music-I have found that as long as I have been listening only to christian music, I wake up with a nice song in my head....and I love that! Read His word! And never cease to pray. I am praying for you now!! You are not evil. Satan is trying to attack you, and it's probably because God has something greater in store for you! God wins over satan every time! hugs~~
God Bless~

 

[peacebestill]

Thank you thank you thank you!! I really appreciate not only for me but my heart, my Spririt and my mind

 

[Yet]

You know something? The religious leaders said Jesus had a devil. You stand in pretty good company sis! Wouldn't you say?

 

[4enlightment]

I have been crying all night because I remember when people use to call me evil; I didn't know why would they say that at first, but since SO many people have said it, I'm starting to believe it. I'm nice as can be but as I got older, I my past played into my remembrance, I did a lot of evil things back when I was younger. The first time I got called evil is when I was with my friend (At the time) e were all hanging out, then we started talking about the bible and what it means and comparing Johova witness and Christian belief together. I remember getting upset because I felt like they were all against me, (for what reason? I can't remember) So I started to be stand offish and to be myself, I had a some paper and a pen so I started to draw random stars, then one of the girls said we should pray; but I told them that I already prayed, then she looked at me and got frighten; she and the other girls said they seen a dark spirit passing my face, they all got up and ran away from me; at that time I was SO confused and scared myself, I didn't know what they was talking about. That night was literally the worse night of my life. I started to really question myself am I really evil? The thought made me seek Jesus fearfully. I the time I was about 18 or 19. I always known I was very odd and different but to believe that I was evil just made me hate myself. Since then more than a couple people called me evil and said I had bad spirits following me. A couple people even had dreams about me and said they were always bad dreams. Guys I'm really scared right now, I do not know what this could mean. Another example is when, My friends step mom was praying for her son because at the time he said he was hearing voices but I didn't know at first, So as she was praying, I wanted to know if everything was OK so I checked on them, as soon I went in she told me to leave and that she was praying, I nervously said Oh, I'm sorry; She called me evil for that. but my intentions were good.. I really do not know what to do here, I feel like something isn't adding up. I did have a dream once that my eyes were really black, looking demonic but I do not know if that means anything. And last night, I was messing with my boyfriend while he was sleeping only to do it as a playful thing, He woke up out of his sleep; And said " What's wrong with you?.. Evil!" I swear my heart hasn't stopped every since then. I cried all last night because I'm REALLY tired of people saying this about me.

If I made anyone afraid reading this I'm sorry; I'm really really scared right now. Am I evil and not know it? I prayed and prayed for Jesus to forgive me. I do not want to be evil or have people see me in that way.

What can I do?

(I am not posting this because of Halloween, I do NOT care about Halloween, I REALLY need help!)

What makes a person evil is when they love doing evil. Some of us does evil, but doesn't love when they do it, they have a feeling of remorse. But some enjoy it, it give them a feeling of accomplishment. But the only One that know the heart is God. So we are not to judge anyone unless we knows what the heart speaks.

Proverbs 4:16 For they cannot rest until they do evil;
they are robbed of sleep till they make someone stumble.

1 Samuel 16:7 But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”