I apologize for the length.
I had only gone to sunday school when i was a little kid, not raised in a Christian home. Only knowledge of the bible was from sunday school and stories everyone has heard. I would say that i did believe in God and heaven and hell but really knew nothing about it all. Used a Ouija board when i was 16 and offered my soul to get me out of where i was and give me all the material things i desired.
Because of some family issues growing up, which started before the Ouija board thing, i committed suicide when i was 19yrs old. I say committed because i had a nde in the motel room. I didn't come back all holier than thou, in fact was quite the opposite. It was such an overwhelming experience, (that i will share in detail at the end) that i could not rectify within myself that such love and peace that i experience could actually be the real God when i looked around at all the devastation around me and this world. To me, the two just didn't match. How could there be so much love where i went, and if that was God how he would let all this pain and suffering go on unchecked in this world.
So, i began what was to be a 30yr journey searching for the truth to where i was. Whether it was an alien existence, or another dimension, or our earthly bodies were simply like caterpillars until we shed and release our spiritual beings into another existence. Tv shows, books, internet, science, conspiracies, whatever i could get a hold of. It basically consumed me on a daily basis, all i ever really thought about while still existing in life, marriage, work children etc.
Year and half ago couple guys at my work who were Christians and would talk in the lunch room often, one was an older gentleman in his 60's now, and you would never know by looking at him just how knowledgeable he was on the bible and how many he's read and studied and when anyone of us non-believers, or yet to be believers as i was would try to trip him up, there was no way, just as all who heard Christ speak knew it was the truth, so it was with this gentleman.
I decided it was time to read the new testament. I don't read books because i am a narcoleptic and about two pages put me to sleep. I downloaded it on my phone so no one would see me reading it. I began with open heart and mind, but i knew what i really was looking for was to dispute it and find holes in it. i did hear the gentleman talk about the new testament as our covenant now so that is where i started.
It didn't take very long for the new testament to start breaking me down, without my permission i'd like to add. For the first time in 30yrs i was feeling that same love i felt in my nde. I put the book down and messaged my friend and asked how am i worthy of all that love. because i know me, how i am, what I've done, what i think about and there was no use for me to continue because i knew there was absolutely no way i would ever be worthy.
His reply was so simply and so profound, he told me "none of us are worthy, no one could ever measure up, that is why Christ died for us". Well, i expected the old, oh, you are worthy, god loves you, don't put yourself down, and i knew he would have been full of crap in my instance. But he spoke the truth, not from his personal perception, but it was from the word as i would find out by reading. And i would understand very quickly by the word that in my nde i was standing in gods light.
I accepted Christ after that message, and soon other people were asking this gentleman, hey what's with rob, he's changed so much. Multiple people were asking, and i didn't know this right away, and didn't know i had even changed, but the word was changing me from the inside out without me really knowing it.
Because it has changed me, it has changed others around me, i am actually looking forward to life now, where as prior to this i was only looking forward to my last day on this earth, though i would never take my own life again as i knew the beauty of where i was going.
Such wonderful things have happened since i was saved, the lights have turned on, and i now realize just how much god was in my life before and was carrying me through the tough times, as he does for us all, but until we accept Christ, we live in darkness and cannot see his helping hand though it is always present.
Now for the nde experience. There are no words in the human language that can ever come close to describing the true unconditional love that awaits us. It took me 10yrs to try and find the words, which i really couldn't so i decided to just put down on paper the actual steps my spirit went through.
I would like people to know and understand, that God exists in a totally different realm than our physical realm. I read so many posts where people are thinking in terms of how we in the physical realm think and feel that it is that way when we pass on but it really isn't. We really need to listen to Christ and read the word so many times that we come to understand it in a spiritual sense, and not a word by word physical mind sense.
And since reading the word, the questions that filled my head for 30yrs are gone, completely. I have no more questions, not one. The clouds that have filled my head my whole life left me completely when i accepted Christ. I really do mean that. My head was always cloudy for real, and Christ has washed me clean not only in a spiritual sense but a physical sense too. Oh i still have plenty of things to work on, but i am now working in the light and not the dark, thanks be to Christ Jesus.
Ok so here is the actual journey my spirit took in my nde. Nde when i was 19 and wrote this when i was 29 and accepted Christ when i was 48. I called it The Journey Home.
LIFE FLASHING BEFORE YOU.......IN A SINGLE MOMENT.......YOU ARE YOUR OWN JUDGE.......ONE LAST SIGH.......SURROUNDED BY LIGHT.......WARMTH, LOVING, HUGGED.......THE LIGHT IS LOVE, PEACEFUL.......ONE WITH THE UNIVERSE.......ALL THE ANSWERS ARE GIVEN.......NO NEED TO ASK QUESTIONS.......IT ALL SEEMS SO SIMPLE.......THE INNOCENCE OF A CHILD.......PURE AS THE LIGHT.......NO MORE EMOTIONS.......NO ANGER, NO TEARS.......ONLY PEACE, ONLY LOVE.......WHEN YOU SPIRIT IS CALLED........EMBRACE THE LIGHT.......YOU ARE GOING HOME.......YOU ARE GOING HOME!
Thanks for reading
God Bless
I had only gone to sunday school when i was a little kid, not raised in a Christian home. Only knowledge of the bible was from sunday school and stories everyone has heard. I would say that i did believe in God and heaven and hell but really knew nothing about it all. Used a Ouija board when i was 16 and offered my soul to get me out of where i was and give me all the material things i desired.
Because of some family issues growing up, which started before the Ouija board thing, i committed suicide when i was 19yrs old. I say committed because i had a nde in the motel room. I didn't come back all holier than thou, in fact was quite the opposite. It was such an overwhelming experience, (that i will share in detail at the end) that i could not rectify within myself that such love and peace that i experience could actually be the real God when i looked around at all the devastation around me and this world. To me, the two just didn't match. How could there be so much love where i went, and if that was God how he would let all this pain and suffering go on unchecked in this world.
So, i began what was to be a 30yr journey searching for the truth to where i was. Whether it was an alien existence, or another dimension, or our earthly bodies were simply like caterpillars until we shed and release our spiritual beings into another existence. Tv shows, books, internet, science, conspiracies, whatever i could get a hold of. It basically consumed me on a daily basis, all i ever really thought about while still existing in life, marriage, work children etc.
Year and half ago couple guys at my work who were Christians and would talk in the lunch room often, one was an older gentleman in his 60's now, and you would never know by looking at him just how knowledgeable he was on the bible and how many he's read and studied and when anyone of us non-believers, or yet to be believers as i was would try to trip him up, there was no way, just as all who heard Christ speak knew it was the truth, so it was with this gentleman.
I decided it was time to read the new testament. I don't read books because i am a narcoleptic and about two pages put me to sleep. I downloaded it on my phone so no one would see me reading it. I began with open heart and mind, but i knew what i really was looking for was to dispute it and find holes in it. i did hear the gentleman talk about the new testament as our covenant now so that is where i started.
It didn't take very long for the new testament to start breaking me down, without my permission i'd like to add. For the first time in 30yrs i was feeling that same love i felt in my nde. I put the book down and messaged my friend and asked how am i worthy of all that love. because i know me, how i am, what I've done, what i think about and there was no use for me to continue because i knew there was absolutely no way i would ever be worthy.
His reply was so simply and so profound, he told me "none of us are worthy, no one could ever measure up, that is why Christ died for us". Well, i expected the old, oh, you are worthy, god loves you, don't put yourself down, and i knew he would have been full of crap in my instance. But he spoke the truth, not from his personal perception, but it was from the word as i would find out by reading. And i would understand very quickly by the word that in my nde i was standing in gods light.
I accepted Christ after that message, and soon other people were asking this gentleman, hey what's with rob, he's changed so much. Multiple people were asking, and i didn't know this right away, and didn't know i had even changed, but the word was changing me from the inside out without me really knowing it.
Because it has changed me, it has changed others around me, i am actually looking forward to life now, where as prior to this i was only looking forward to my last day on this earth, though i would never take my own life again as i knew the beauty of where i was going.
Such wonderful things have happened since i was saved, the lights have turned on, and i now realize just how much god was in my life before and was carrying me through the tough times, as he does for us all, but until we accept Christ, we live in darkness and cannot see his helping hand though it is always present.
Now for the nde experience. There are no words in the human language that can ever come close to describing the true unconditional love that awaits us. It took me 10yrs to try and find the words, which i really couldn't so i decided to just put down on paper the actual steps my spirit went through.
I would like people to know and understand, that God exists in a totally different realm than our physical realm. I read so many posts where people are thinking in terms of how we in the physical realm think and feel that it is that way when we pass on but it really isn't. We really need to listen to Christ and read the word so many times that we come to understand it in a spiritual sense, and not a word by word physical mind sense.
And since reading the word, the questions that filled my head for 30yrs are gone, completely. I have no more questions, not one. The clouds that have filled my head my whole life left me completely when i accepted Christ. I really do mean that. My head was always cloudy for real, and Christ has washed me clean not only in a spiritual sense but a physical sense too. Oh i still have plenty of things to work on, but i am now working in the light and not the dark, thanks be to Christ Jesus.
Ok so here is the actual journey my spirit took in my nde. Nde when i was 19 and wrote this when i was 29 and accepted Christ when i was 48. I called it The Journey Home.
LIFE FLASHING BEFORE YOU.......IN A SINGLE MOMENT.......YOU ARE YOUR OWN JUDGE.......ONE LAST SIGH.......SURROUNDED BY LIGHT.......WARMTH, LOVING, HUGGED.......THE LIGHT IS LOVE, PEACEFUL.......ONE WITH THE UNIVERSE.......ALL THE ANSWERS ARE GIVEN.......NO NEED TO ASK QUESTIONS.......IT ALL SEEMS SO SIMPLE.......THE INNOCENCE OF A CHILD.......PURE AS THE LIGHT.......NO MORE EMOTIONS.......NO ANGER, NO TEARS.......ONLY PEACE, ONLY LOVE.......WHEN YOU SPIRIT IS CALLED........EMBRACE THE LIGHT.......YOU ARE GOING HOME.......YOU ARE GOING HOME!
Thanks for reading
God Bless
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