There is only one thing that distracts me from working out my own salvation- judgful people. I know God is my only Judge, yet I get entangled in the emotions and stress of trying to make myself correct in their eyes, that it pauses me making sure I'm correct in Gods eyes. God is patient, He understands that truly changing from within takes time. Judgful people are not patient, they want to see instant change, so I pretend on the surface instead of doing the change from within that will eventually be seen on the surface.
They are like mosquitoes, pestering and sucking the life out of you- you spend your time swatting them away instead of what you are supposed to be doing. Their judging only prolongs you working on whatever they are judging you about. It's only times that they back off that I'm able to grow.
They dont even even know that I am the biggest judge of myself anyways. I do work out my salivation with fear and trembling, when they leave me alone to do so. And when I do, God protects me from excessive sorrow, from being so overwhelmed that I would have a heartache and die. We have fellowship, and I grow in my love and knowledge of Him- which causes me to make better decisions- which is where the war is- for sin is first in the mind before it's carried out physically. And like the Bible says, my mind becomes more like the Holy Spirit. And this change in my mind and in my heart comes out in my words, actions, and attitude.
I know that God will forgive what I do wrong because I'm trying to do right, but falling short and disappointing Him is the deepest grieve of my soul.
