When healing doesn't happen

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toinena

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I have a muscular dystrophy called Limb Girdle (LGMD2i), and I get just weaker and weaker. I have lost most of my ability to walk, my breathing is affected, arms and shoulders are getting weaker and now I can hardly lift anything. Back and abs are a chapter by them selves. I can't do what I am trained to do professionally, but have had to find another profession. I work, and I serve the Lord. I live alone with my beautiful service-dog and love my work, house and friends. I try to rejoice in the Lord, but sometimes life is just too tough to handle. The future terrifies me. I know I will get weaker and to be more dependent on care-givers... I really don't like the idea of facing that.

Anyway. I keep on praying for healing. And people pray for me. I have believed for healing numeral times. Over many years. I am convinced that this time it is going to happen. I have had Christian "friends" making me and my healing their project. When it doesn't happen, they leave. I have had other "friends" telling me I am possessed, and that's why healing doesn't happen. A preacher told I had sin in my life blocking the healing.

Yes. I am a sinner. And I repent my sins. And believe I am forgiven in Jesus' name.

I believe I will be healed. The question is when. It might not be before the day we get glorified bodies in the rapture or when God will take me home. But I have to live with faith and hope of healing. Otherwise I don't know how I could manage to go on. I am happy people are praying for me. But please don't blame me when it doesn't happen. It is not up to us how and when. We have to humble ourselves and just keep on serving, praying, praising and following Jesus. I need a wheelchair to do so, but still Jesus is the love of my life and I love to follow him.

I just wanted to know... how does other people in need of healing cope with not getting healed? And how should we respond when healing doesn't happen?
 
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I hope Blue Ladybug finds this post. She had a post for disabled people to tell their stories. Don't remember where it was anymore, but it's on this site somewhere. Lots of disabled people have added to it over the years. And I read it right when I was supposed to and got encouraged by it. So, I hope Blue comes along and knows how to find it. I suspect it will encourage you too.
 
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toinena

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I write. And I added this the last time I was on this site.

http://christianchat.com/bible-disc...ealing-disability-illness-unbelief-posts.html

I've also gone back to the obvious, "Not my will, but thine be done." It's hard, but there really is no other choice. And ultimately, read the bible verse in my signature. I remember even this is for my good and God's glory.
Thank you. I guess I just need to get it out, sometimes. Writing helps to structure thoughts and feelings. God bless you, sister.
 

notbythesword

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I have a muscular dystrophy called Limb Girdle (LGMD2i), and I get just weaker and weaker. I have lost most of my ability to walk, my breathing is affected, arms and shoulders are getting weaker and now I can hardly lift anything. Back and abs are a chapter by them selves. I can't do what I am trained to do professionally, but have had to find another profession. I work, and I serve the Lord. I live alone with my beautiful service-dog and love my work, house and friends. I try to rejoice in the Lord, but sometimes life is just too tough to handle. The future terrifies me. I know I will get weaker and to be more dependent on care-givers... I really don't like the idea of facing that.

Anyway. I keep on praying for healing. And people pray for me. I have believed for healing numeral times. Over many years. I am convinced that this time it is going to happen. I have had Christian "friends" making me and my healing their project. When it doesn't happen, they leave. I have had other "friends" telling me I am possessed, and that's why healing doesn't happen. A preacher told I had sin in my life blocking the healing.

Yes. I am a sinner. And I repent my sins. And believe I am forgiven in Jesus' name.

I believe I will be healed. The question is when. It might not be before the day we get glorified bodies in the rapture or when God will take me home. But I have to live with faith and hope of healing. Otherwise I don't know how I could manage to go on. I am happy people are praying for me. But please don't blame me when it doesn't happen. It is not up to us how and when. We have to humble ourselves and just keep on serving, praying, praising and following Jesus. I need a wheelchair to do so, but still Jesus is the love of my life and I love to follow him.

I just wanted to know... how does other people in need of healing cope with not getting healed? And how should we respond when healing doesn't happen?
It really upsets me that people would say that because of your condition that you are possessed. Infirmities have fallen on both the righteous and the evil. Job would be a good example of that. I wish you the very best, and have already said a prayer for you.
 
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Ariel82

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I hope Blue Ladybug finds this post. She had a post for disabled people to tell their stories. Don't remember where it was anymore, but it's on this site somewhere. Lots of disabled people have added to it over the years. And I read it right when I was supposed to and got encouraged by it. So, I hope Blue comes along and knows how to find it. I suspect it will encourage you too.
http://christianchat.com/blogs/blue_ladybug/10737-my-testimonies.html

Here is a link to Blue lady but threads.
 

wolfwint

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I have a muscular dystrophy called Limb Girdle (LGMD2i), and I get just weaker and weaker. I have lost most of my ability to walk, my breathing is affected, arms and shoulders are getting weaker and now I can hardly lift anything. Back and abs are a chapter by them selves. I can't do what I am trained to do professionally, but have had to find another profession. I work, and I serve the Lord. I live alone with my beautiful service-dog and love my work, house and friends. I try to rejoice in the Lord, but sometimes life is just too tough to handle. The future terrifies me. I know I will get weaker and to be more dependent on care-givers... I really don't like the idea of facing that.

Anyway. I keep on praying for healing. And people pray for me. I have believed for healing numeral times. Over many years. I am convinced that this time it is going to happen. I have had Christian "friends" making me and my healing their project. When it doesn't happen, they leave. I have had other "friends" telling me I am possessed, and that's why healing doesn't happen. A preacher told I had sin in my life blocking the healing.

Yes. I am a sinner. And I repent my sins. And believe I am forgiven in Jesus' name.

I believe I will be healed. The question is when. It might not be before the day we get glorified bodies in the rapture or when God will take me home. But I have to live with faith and hope of healing. Otherwise I don't know how I could manage to go on. I am happy people are praying for me. But please don't blame me when it doesn't happen. It is not up to us how and when. We have to humble ourselves and just keep on serving, praying, praising and following Jesus. I need a wheelchair to do so, but still Jesus is the love of my life and I love to follow him.

I just wanted to know... how does other people in need of healing cope with not getting healed? And how should we respond when healing doesn't happen?
Toinena, Thank you for your witness !
Depleted has a good verse! Do not give up to trust in your heavenly father sick ore healed. I pray for You.
 

RickyZ

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Healing is meant as a way to exhibit the power of God to garner faith, not to provide universal healthcare. Everyone who has been healed has gone on to die anyway. It's not a conference of immortality or a contravention of our fallen physical nature. I think if you really want healing, pray not that you be relieved of your infirmity but that such a gift will be a sign and encouragement for someone else.
 
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Sherril

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What a beautiful love you have for our God! God is faithful toward His children, our God is to be trusted....Yes He does heal ....As we know He does His perfect will on this earth to bring glory and honor to Himself......As we go through this life times can be hard but we can always depend on our Father God of His great love for us ...One thing i know for myself whatever is going on in my life God is there with me, i see His wonderful mighty beautiful workings in my life.....What a amazing God we serve if God for whatever reason does not heal us here on this earth, we still glorify Him in whatever life may bring..................thank you for sharing such a wonderful post.....love in Christ Sherril....:D
 

Gabriel2020

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I know some people might find this hard to believe, but healing in the bible days was mostly done on unbelievers. they had faith to believe that a believer could heal them. they believed that more than believing in Jesus. If they were healed, in some cases ,it lead the unbeliever to become saved and believe in Jesus. Not all, but many followed Jesus because of what he could do. healing,casting out demons and feeding them,but they did not want his gospel. With healing, the anointing has to be on a believer at a certain time.,and that comes by the Holy Spirit urging that person to lay hands on some one for their healing.You need someone who will lay hands on you and let the Holy Spirit Heal you . timing is everything. the apostles could not heal at all times either. only when the anointing is present. search for such a person or persons in a Holy Ghost filled church. Ask God to lead you to that church, but you have to listen carefully and know when he speaks. Some times God may tell you in a very small voice like he did Paul. "My grace is sufficient "
 

graceNpeace

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I have a muscular dystrophy called Limb Girdle (LGMD2i), and I get just weaker and weaker. I have lost most of my ability to walk, my breathing is affected, arms and shoulders are getting weaker and now I can hardly lift anything. Back and abs are a chapter by them selves. I can't do what I am trained to do professionally, but have had to find another profession. I work, and I serve the Lord. I live alone with my beautiful service-dog and love my work, house and friends. I try to rejoice in the Lord, but sometimes life is just too tough to handle. The future terrifies me. I know I will get weaker and to be more dependent on care-givers... I really don't like the idea of facing that.

Anyway. I keep on praying for healing. And people pray for me. I have believed for healing numeral times. Over many years. I am convinced that this time it is going to happen. I have had Christian "friends" making me and my healing their project. When it doesn't happen, they leave. I have had other "friends" telling me I am possessed, and that's why healing doesn't happen. A preacher told I had sin in my life blocking the healing.

Yes. I am a sinner. And I repent my sins. And believe I am forgiven in Jesus' name.

I believe I will be healed. The question is when. It might not be before the day we get glorified bodies in the rapture or when God will take me home. But I have to live with faith and hope of healing. Otherwise I don't know how I could manage to go on. I am happy people are praying for me. But please don't blame me when it doesn't happen. It is not up to us how and when. We have to humble ourselves and just keep on serving, praying, praising and following Jesus. I need a wheelchair to do so, but still Jesus is the love of my life and I love to follow him.

I just wanted to know... how does other people in need of healing cope with not getting healed? And how should we respond when healing doesn't happen?
I read your whole post sister.

I do want to reassure you about two things:
I do utterly believe you that you are a Christian - no question; and
I do not believe that you are demon-possessed.

God does love you and God does care for you.
I do not know whether you will be healed in this life or not, but your healing is assured.

It really makes me VERY angry when third parties say they will pray for a certain outcome and then put the burden of the result on you.
This is victim-blaming at its worst.
My only criticism of you is that you need new friends!
The responsibility is on those praying - not the recipient in this case...remember, if you could "make yourself healed" you would already have done so without their help.
The faith issue, and the wonky theology, is their's, not your's.

This is no cop out - if healing does not occur in this life it is assured when we rise again!

I am a non-cessationist who believes in praying for healing. I know that the results are in God's hands not mine.
To put things in perspective I am also a physician. As such I see the limitations of current medical knowledge and technology every day.

Keep you chin up sister - you are beloved of God!
 

notmyown

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I have a muscular dystrophy called Limb Girdle (LGMD2i), and I get just weaker and weaker. I have lost most of my ability to walk, my breathing is affected, arms and shoulders are getting weaker and now I can hardly lift anything. Back and abs are a chapter by them selves. I can't do what I am trained to do professionally, but have had to find another profession. I work, and I serve the Lord. I live alone with my beautiful service-dog and love my work, house and friends. I try to rejoice in the Lord, but sometimes life is just too tough to handle. The future terrifies me. I know I will get weaker and to be more dependent on care-givers... I really don't like the idea of facing that.

Anyway. I keep on praying for healing. And people pray for me. I have believed for healing numeral times. Over many years. I am convinced that this time it is going to happen. I have had Christian "friends" making me and my healing their project. When it doesn't happen, they leave. I have had other "friends" telling me I am possessed, and that's why healing doesn't happen. A preacher told I had sin in my life blocking the healing.

Yes. I am a sinner. And I repent my sins. And believe I am forgiven in Jesus' name.

I believe I will be healed. The question is when. It might not be before the day we get glorified bodies in the rapture or when God will take me home. But I have to live with faith and hope of healing. Otherwise I don't know how I could manage to go on. I am happy people are praying for me. But please don't blame me when it doesn't happen. It is not up to us how and when. We have to humble ourselves and just keep on serving, praying, praising and following Jesus. I need a wheelchair to do so, but still Jesus is the love of my life and I love to follow him.

I just wanted to know... how does other people in need of healing cope with not getting healed? And how should we respond when healing doesn't happen?

i've never undergone anything as serious as this, but i have learned to say thank You when God's answer to my prayer is yes, thank You when it's wait, and thank You when it's no.

you hang in there, toinena. God is faithful whatever our circumstances look like.
and please know this post has blessed me.
 

Desertsrose

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I have a muscular dystrophy called Limb Girdle (LGMD2i), and I get just weaker and weaker. I have lost most of my ability to walk, my breathing is affected, arms and shoulders are getting weaker and now I can hardly lift anything. Back and abs are a chapter by them selves. I can't do what I am trained to do professionally, but have had to find another profession. I work, and I serve the Lord. I live alone with my beautiful service-dog and love my work, house and friends. I try to rejoice in the Lord, but sometimes life is just too tough to handle. The future terrifies me. I know I will get weaker and to be more dependent on care-givers... I really don't like the idea of facing that.

Anyway. I keep on praying for healing. And people pray for me. I have believed for healing numeral times. Over many years. I am convinced that this time it is going to happen. I have had Christian "friends" making me and my healing their project. When it doesn't happen, they leave. I have had other "friends" telling me I am possessed, and that's why healing doesn't happen. A preacher told I had sin in my life blocking the healing.

Yes. I am a sinner. And I repent my sins. And believe I am forgiven in Jesus' name.

I believe I will be healed. The question is when. It might not be before the day we get glorified bodies in the rapture or when God will take me home. But I have to live with faith and hope of healing. Otherwise I don't know how I could manage to go on. I am happy people are praying for me. But please don't blame me when it doesn't happen. It is not up to us how and when. We have to humble ourselves and just keep on serving, praying, praising and following Jesus. I need a wheelchair to do so, but still Jesus is the love of my life and I love to follow him.

I just wanted to know... how does other people in need of healing cope with not getting healed? And how should we respond when healing doesn't happen?

Hi Toinena,

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So sorry to hear of your situation. I have heard similar comments from others as well. I'm sure some mean well, others are deceived and others are just cruel with their tongues. I forgive them, but don't really want to be around them.

I deal with similar thoughts as I struggle throughout the day with weakness, fatigue, muscle cramping, headaches and pain etc.

I applaud you for moving on and finding
another job that you can work at. You have a great attitude!!!

I also love my friends, family and I'm so blessed to be able to enjoy my home. I also give a little too much concern towards my future, but I try to lay my worries at our Lord's feet. Some days are just so difficult so I understand the battle of the mind.

Amen, if we're not healed on this side of heaven we have a great future ......with new bodies and no more pain!

I do an online bible study and that keeps my mind focused on truth. We have an hour of study each day for 5 days. When the mind battles come from many sources, including here, God's word protects me from the fiery darts that the enemy throws at me.

I focus on God's love and provision one day at a time. That helps me to not think of my future health issues that look bleak and keeps my hope in our Lord Jesus Christ.

I also pray the word. I will think of something in the bible and turn to it and begin to pray and I thank God for the promises I'm reading out loud to the Lord. The enemy has no power over me when I pray like that. He wants me to doubt God's goodness, His mercy and provision. It's a great way to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ.

I'm also writing in a composition book. I add scriptures in there that encourage me. I'll use different colors to highlight words or phrases that I need to meditate on. I'll add songs or hymns in there and I also add poems; some of them my own. When it's full, I'll begin a new one. :)

I have a couple pooches that help me through the day and bring me great joy. I thank God for them so much - they are truly a blessing from Him.

I try to say out loud each day, "This is the day the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it."

Putting on praise and worship music really helps. I also like to go outside and look at God's beautiful creation and begin to worship Him and adore Him in awe of His magnificence! I think about how much more beautiful we are to the Lord then any created thing.

Being and talking with friends helps.

My most difficult battle is to not feel guilty for being sick and the limitations it brings. I can't keep the house as clean as I once did. I can't work and bring money in to help pay the bills like I use to. I can't always cook a meal for my husband and that really bothers me. So I feel guilty because I can't do all those things even though they're out of my control.

One of the bible study teachers has health issues as well and she says many times how she really dislikes the assignment God has given her. So that helped me to know that the battle in our minds don't affect just me. We all struggle and can encourage one another during this difficult journey. I wish I could give you a hug!

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Agricola

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I have potentially fatal long-term diseases. God has not cured me of those, but God has miraculously healed me of other things instantly.

Why does God do this? Who knows. However, it is how you see life that is important. People who are perfectly fine can end up in old age being cared for around the clock, yes it is scary what can happen to our bodies, but just think how to live your life best you can for Christ in your situation. Maybe in the future people who end up caring for you will end up accepting Christ because of your testimony. If you were healed they may go to Hell.

God has a plan for you, if that plan is ending up in the wheelchair looked after by people, then so be it. It's not for long anyway, especailly compared to eternity.

Have you heard of Nick Vujicic? He is an amazing person doing Gods work. He was born with no arms or legs. If God healed him or did not allow him to be born that way, then this video would not exist, people would not be inspired and hear about the value of live, many people will not have come to know Christ. Here is a TED video.[video=youtube;6P2nPI6CTlc]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6P2nPI6CTlc[/video]
 
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Hi toinena, I hope this helps. Do not think about healing, just moment by moment live your life for God. God does at times heal people, however I have found that for the most part God allows this life to progress in its own natural way. Practice trust in God for each moment and do not worry about the rest.
 

Joidevivre

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When I am not healed for a lengthy amount of time, I must believe that since my life is in God's hands He has purposed to use my sickness to give me either new revelations of Himself, or to show forth His grace in my life to others.

Recently, in dealing with cancer of the mouth and glands in the neck, others saw how He graced me with supernatural peace. They even call ME a miracle.

What I gained was a profound intimate knowledge of The Comforter. I have never known all the dimensions of the ways in which He comforts. I had to go through all this to really experience His comfort. I've lost my husband, and felt comforted, but nothing even compares with the comfort He can give through surgery and 37 bouts of radiation on my neck.

I do want to mention that I would not have experienced this comfort if I had not surrendered to what was happening as God's purpose for my life. I settled in to whatever only asking that He be seen. I never questioned if there was something I did that caused it, or questioned my faith in God's healing hand. I just accepted what was and still is.

Ask the Lord how He wants to reveal Himself to you through what you are going through. Ask Him how he is asking you to respond. And then every day receive the way in which He wants to minister to you. And look for it. One day a friend came over and redecorated and rearranged my living room. I immediately knew it was the Lord's way of ministering to me in giving me a more healing pleasant environment. Another day someone brought me flowers. But I knew it was the Lord. And there was always something everyday - even if it is a sunset made for you, or a bird singing His song to you.

Even though healing does not happen quickly or even at all, there is always some daily evidence of His fingerprint on you if you look for it. He loves you and wants to bring you comfort and give you moments of joy.
 
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I keep on praying for healing
Have you considered accepting it as fact like you do salvation... believing, acting, speaking, praising, thanking the Lord you have it now as God's promises indicate? Of course if you do this, you may have to stop listening to some who won't understand even though they are well meaning... they're going by what they see physically.

We walk by faith and not by sight and some days people don't feel to saved but they continue to say they are.

God's Word speaks as though we are already saved... just a thought.
 
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popeye

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I have a muscular dystrophy called Limb Girdle (LGMD2i), and I get just weaker and weaker. I have lost most of my ability to walk, my breathing is affected, arms and shoulders are getting weaker and now I can hardly lift anything. Back and abs are a chapter by them selves. I can't do what I am trained to do professionally, but have had to find another profession. I work, and I serve the Lord. I live alone with my beautiful service-dog and love my work, house and friends. I try to rejoice in the Lord, but sometimes life is just too tough to handle. The future terrifies me. I know I will get weaker and to be more dependent on care-givers... I really don't like the idea of facing that.

Anyway. I keep on praying for healing. And people pray for me. I have believed for healing numeral times. Over many years. I am convinced that this time it is going to happen. I have had Christian "friends" making me and my healing their project. When it doesn't happen, they leave. I have had other "friends" telling me I am possessed, and that's why healing doesn't happen. A preacher told I had sin in my life blocking the healing.

Yes. I am a sinner. And I repent my sins. And believe I am forgiven in Jesus' name.

I believe I will be healed. The question is when. It might not be before the day we get glorified bodies in the rapture or when God will take me home. But I have to live with faith and hope of healing. Otherwise I don't know how I could manage to go on. I am happy people are praying for me. But please don't blame me when it doesn't happen. It is not up to us how and when. We have to humble ourselves and just keep on serving, praying, praising and following Jesus. I need a wheelchair to do so, but still Jesus is the love of my life and I love to follow him.

I just wanted to know... how does other people in need of healing cope with not getting healed? And how should we respond when healing doesn't happen?
[FONT=&quot]25 So she went and came unto the man of God to mount Carmel. And it came to pass, when the man of God saw her afar off, that he said to Gehazi his servant, Behold, yonder is that Shunammite:[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]26 Run now, I pray thee, to meet her, and say unto her, Is it well with thee? is it well with thy husband? is it well with the child? And she answered, It is well:[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]27 And when she came to the man of God to the hill, she caught him by the feet: but Gehazi came near to thrust her away. And the man of God said, Let her alone; for her soul is vexed within her: and the Lord hath hid it from me, and hath not told me.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]28 Then she said, Did I desire a son of my lord? did I not say, Do not deceive me?[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]29 Then he said to Gehazi, Gird up thy loins, and take my staff in thine hand, and go thy way: if thou meet any man, salute him not; and if any salute thee, answer him not again: and lay my staff upon the face of the child.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]30 And the mother of the child said, As the Lord liveth, and as thy soul liveth, I will not leave thee. And he arose, and followed her.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]31 And Gehazi passed on before them, and laid the staff upon the face of the child; but there was neither voice, nor hearing. Wherefore he went again to meet him, and told him, saying, The child is not awaked.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]32 And when Elisha was come into the house, behold, the child was dead, and laid upon his bed.

See that? the efforts failed to save the child or heal him.
Ahh,but wait. The miracle is on the way.

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[FONT=&quot]33 He went in therefore, and shut the door upon them twain, and prayed unto the Lord.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]34 And he went up, and lay upon the child, and put his mouth upon his mouth, and his eyes upon his eyes, and his hands upon his hands: and stretched himself upon the child; and the flesh of the child waxed warm.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]35 Then he returned, and walked in the house to and fro; and went up, and stretched himself upon him: and the child sneezed seven times, and the child opened his eyes.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]36 And he called Gehazi, and said, Call this Shunammite. So he called her. And when she was come in unto him, he said, Take up thy son.[/FONT]
[FONT=&quot]37 Then she went in, and fell at his feet, and bowed herself to the ground, and took up her son, and went out.

I believe in miracles. This is my passion. To see the anointing og God Almighty break the Yoke of sickness,disease,injury,and death.

I will be praying for your miracle.

I invoke Mat 18;18
I invoke the Holy Spirit
I invoke the risen savior,the empty tomb and the Blood of Jesus.

MD the cross is against you. You will not operate in her. According to mat 18;18 that sorry thing is cancelled.

Strength return. Virtue return.


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popeye

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I know I will get weaker and to be more dependent on care-givers... I really don't like the idea of facing that.
No,you will NOT get weaker

There will be NO dependence on care givers.
 
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popeye

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On the vid I posted watch from 3;50 to 4;25.

that is you. That is your strength.