I must admit that i stopped going to church for a long while. I actually led a very successful youth ministry.
I won't go into the details why I left other than to say my shoulders were very heavy and I was weary. I carried baggage of life and the past and the baggage of the need to conform.
I never lost my faith in Jesus, just in myself and people. And for 13-14 years I cried out and cried every day to Jesus.
When I started to come back Church I googled Gods grace, and I stumbled upon E2R and I must admit it really helped me.
I e-mailed Paul Ellis and this man spent months talking to me.
One thing that really helped me was actually understanding what grace is and how it works.
One thing that struck me was that grace actually covers my sin and I don't have to pay back for my sin or work it off.
I could never accept that when I sinned then it is covered by the blood of Jesus. I was a sack cloth and ashes man (and still working through that)
So to me my sin and foibles were bigger than Gods grace. This stemmed from the fact that I honestly felt that God did not love me. He only loved me because he has to because of what Jesus did.
Then one day when I was laid up with a back issue God asked me to spend some time with him. After the 3rd time of asking I said yes.
I read the following and as I read it I had a picture in my mind.
A gun suddenly appeared and the barrel was open and a silver bullet was inserted and the barrel closed and the trigger pulled.
Here what was inscribed on this bullet.
John 17:23
23 I in them, and You in Me; that they may be made perfect in one, and that the world may know that You have sent Me, and have loved them as You have loved Me.
That bullet was shot right into my heart. GOD LOVES JESUS AS MUCH AS HE LOVES ME.
I broke down in tears and then I got a glimpse of Gods grace.
One thing I know though and as Paul says Gods grace is not an excuse sin.
To me Gods grace forgives our sin and it's his grace that says "I love where you are and I love enough to bring you out of where you are"
To me God loves to conform us to the image of Jesus.
The reason I have gone a bit deep here is because people can walk in a way that seems to betray their confession and faith in Jesus. Then we can judge them as not being really saved.
During My restoration a lot of healing was needed, emotionally and spiritually.
So if a person doesn't seem to changing (and we must be very careful here as to what change we expect to see) we need to come alongside them in love and compassion, with gentleness and wisdom, revealing the true word of God as correction.
If a person identifies as a sinner what are they going to do?
To me the mindset is to sin because that's their identity.
Now if a persons identity is that as a child of the Father who loves them so much and is for them then focus changes.
I WANT TO BE LIKE YOU AND WALK IN THE WAY YOU HAVE ASKED ME.
When someone wants that then the amazing grace of God that saved them will work.
Now if a person has no interest in this then one must question whether they actually have saving faith.
I won't go into the details why I left other than to say my shoulders were very heavy and I was weary. I carried baggage of life and the past and the baggage of the need to conform.
I never lost my faith in Jesus, just in myself and people. And for 13-14 years I cried out and cried every day to Jesus.
When I started to come back Church I googled Gods grace, and I stumbled upon E2R and I must admit it really helped me.
I e-mailed Paul Ellis and this man spent months talking to me.
One thing that really helped me was actually understanding what grace is and how it works.
One thing that struck me was that grace actually covers my sin and I don't have to pay back for my sin or work it off.
I could never accept that when I sinned then it is covered by the blood of Jesus. I was a sack cloth and ashes man (and still working through that)
So to me my sin and foibles were bigger than Gods grace. This stemmed from the fact that I honestly felt that God did not love me. He only loved me because he has to because of what Jesus did.
Then one day when I was laid up with a back issue God asked me to spend some time with him. After the 3rd time of asking I said yes.
I read the following and as I read it I had a picture in my mind.
A gun suddenly appeared and the barrel was open and a silver bullet was inserted and the barrel closed and the trigger pulled.
Here what was inscribed on this bullet.
John 17:23
23 I in them, and You in Me; that they may be made perfect in one, and that the world may know that You have sent Me, and have loved them as You have loved Me.
That bullet was shot right into my heart. GOD LOVES JESUS AS MUCH AS HE LOVES ME.
I broke down in tears and then I got a glimpse of Gods grace.
One thing I know though and as Paul says Gods grace is not an excuse sin.
To me Gods grace forgives our sin and it's his grace that says "I love where you are and I love enough to bring you out of where you are"
To me God loves to conform us to the image of Jesus.
The reason I have gone a bit deep here is because people can walk in a way that seems to betray their confession and faith in Jesus. Then we can judge them as not being really saved.
During My restoration a lot of healing was needed, emotionally and spiritually.
So if a person doesn't seem to changing (and we must be very careful here as to what change we expect to see) we need to come alongside them in love and compassion, with gentleness and wisdom, revealing the true word of God as correction.
If a person identifies as a sinner what are they going to do?
To me the mindset is to sin because that's their identity.
Now if a persons identity is that as a child of the Father who loves them so much and is for them then focus changes.
I WANT TO BE LIKE YOU AND WALK IN THE WAY YOU HAVE ASKED ME.
When someone wants that then the amazing grace of God that saved them will work.
Now if a person has no interest in this then one must question whether they actually have saving faith.