I actually have a testimony page in the testimony section, but Ill make a really quick version of how I came to Christ here-
I had a Christian grandmother and a pseudo-Christian mom (she claimed to believe in Christ but did not believe in the Bible, and her views came from multiple sources, even from things like Islam, and practiced occult things like tarot cards and such), but I never had a real strong foundation for faith.
In my teen years I decided I wanted nothing to do with God, wore upside down crosses and mocked Christians and all that. I took up beliefs such as God hates gays ect ect and therefor must be my enemy.
I made a Christian friend during that time, he became the best friend I had ever had, my other friends at the time were not nice at all, so he had a big impact on me. Over the course of ten years or so he lead me to believe in God, helped me learn that its important to care about others and challenge the beliefs I had at the time. I came to realize that believing life without God was a ridiculous thing and accepted that I was created, and I decided to believe in a god of sorts, the only problem was that I molded my belief of God around my lifestyle.
I come from the lbgt lifestyle, this was me before actually coming to Christ-
You can see that Im wearing a cross around my neck. Like I said, I believed in a god of sorts, and called myself a Christian. But I for real knew nothing about Christ other than people called Him the "Son of God", this even lead me to be confused by a Muslim I talked with before I actually came to Him, because I knew absolutely nothing about who He was : p
Anywho, I got into occult stuff too. I used an ouija board with friends I had at the time, and one night while using it the board told me to communicate with the being we were talking to using pen and paper by myself. So I did. I did that for years afterward until 2013, when I started hearing a voice in my head claiming to be the spirit I was talking to.
That continued on until early 2014, when the voice became audible, except only to me. It also started to cause me pain and extreme fear and anxiety, to the point I couldnt even fall asleep to find rest from it. It would tell me that I was going to hell, that I would cry and beg for help, and it laughed at me if I prayed to whatever god I was worshiping for help. It told me over and over that I should just kill myself to get away from it.
My Christian friend I made in my teen years bought me a Bible, though I never read it. I think it was like the 3rd night of going through this torment that I grabbed the Bible he bought me, and I begged God to show me anything to help me. After I did, I closed my eyes, flipped through the pages randomly and then randomly stopped, letting my finger land wherever it happened to land.
I was shown many verses that night that guided me to God. I dont remember all of them, though. I was under extreme anxiety and I did not think about writing them down at the time. But, I remember being shown some verse about rebelling against God, and confused, I asked how I was rebelling against Him. I did the flipping the Bible blindly thing again and landed on Deut 22:5- A man shall not wear the cloak of a woman, and a woman shall not wear the garb of a man.
At the time I was going by the name Jessica, everyone I knew at the time knew me by that name, so I even asked about that and did it again, and I got the story of Johns birth, where his family wanted him to be named Zachariah, but when the father wrote "his name will be John", he was given back his ability to speak, causing the family to praise God. I got the message that I should use the name given to me by my mother and father : p
After that night, I decided that I was going to completely leave my life behind and come to Christ. I told everyone I knew online, even the forum I was a member of at the time. No one approved of my new life of course, except one Christian girl who said I was an inspiration : p I told the boy I was with at the time that I was leaving that life behind too, and of course he was really upset. (Were still good friends though) And since that day in 2014 I have been a Christian who lives by the word of God alone, and I have no desire to go back : p
(hope that wasnt too long)
