I'm sorry to break the rules I really didn't know where else post this. How does the Catholic Church feel about S&M? I'm being serious when I ask this. I'm too afraid to talk to my priest being that I'm female. Truth be told I used to be really into it for about 5 years and my last boyfriend was borderline mentally abusive about it. He would constantly talk down to me and degrade me and what I always talk being with other women right in front of me. So I left the lifestyle 2 years ago. I haven't had a relationship since then. I feel better with my relationship with God but deep down I'm hurting with guilt over wanting to do this again. I've only had two relationships and both had this in them. I was the dominant one who controlled my boyfriends and they loved it. Now I feel anxious and vulnerable when I think about being in a relationship without it. It made me feel safe to be in control. Picture of the exact opposite of Jill Duggar's marriage. What should I do?