Blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. The most serious sin we as Christians could make. I would like to give an example of what i believe God is meaning by this declaration He does not go into detail about except to warn us against it. I might add, He does this for a reason, not go into detail that is, detail of defining it. And don't you think this is odd?
Now during my life, when i was in my sins, i realized there were moments when i might have been guilty of this? Those days are a haze ! Am i now condemned? one would be fair to ask/accuse? NO, not then, but YES, if i did this NOW, i definitely would be. Please let me explain.
All my life, i thought i knew God. Or at least thought i knew enough about God. I started reading the bible at 8 years of age, i was pretending to be a priest even earlier, i used to cut up my mums old dresses and draw a big cross on them, and use them as my robes...i know, i know...LOL. I even had Catholic memorabilia and a small plastic statue of Mary...shock horror!! LOL, you should know what i mean here by shock horror if you have read my speaking out against this practice..
Now as i grew, i went through periods of reading and periods of long neglect. So since i was 'dabbling' in God, i was not yet dedicated to Him in the true sense of the word. And since not dedicated, i was not obeying the greatest commandment, and that is To Love the Lord your God with all your heart mind and soul. So since i had other desires before God in my heart, He would not draw close to me, and i could not draw close to Him. It was a long distance relationship !! And i continued obeying those other things that were above Him in my heart. Sins i enjoyed...I was a Christian by name only.
So as a consequence, my understanding was polluted, in other words, my understanding was just that..MINE and not His. Now when one is in this state, one is not yet truly His by the letter. Don't take this literally please, for God knows who are His and He draws those He chooses, therefore, even a person in their sins who may not YET have an interest in God, or dedicated, does not mean this will always be the case. This is an example of God telling us not to judge others. What He means is we can not judge who will be saved or who won't. Because only God knows that, and if you knew me say 5 years ago, you would probably see me as a lost cause regardless of my belief.
Now as i came to a low point in my life, (i wondered why i smelt like dung, didn't realize it was because i was swimming in it, lol) something happened to me. I was demonically tormented for two weeks night and DAY..visually !! Black black shapes darker than night, at least 5 minute intervals when they'd manifest and dart towards/by me, emitting such hatred towards me it was nerve racking. I was petrified, and by the end of the second week, after constant failed commands to cast them away in Christs name, realizing i was not protected after all, after two weeks of this fear and this soul crushing realization, feeling abandoned by God, this was the most emotional catalyst, i broke down and cried which was a hard thing to make me do back then with my luke warm heart..
That night, after watching glowing whisps of "smoke" (at times they glowed) before my face in my room (again) whilst attempting to sleep in a house i was alone in those two weeks, feeling that hatred and sense of constant imminent danger eminating from them, and expecting at any moment a demonic face to push through the haze and swallow my soul, not to mention the sucking sounds coming OUT of my right ear before they'd appear at night (a clue that they were IN me), i made an urgent emotional call to my now brethren Journey41. She happened as it were, to be that particular night, without me knowing, at my soon to be teachers house, Wakeup, of which she'd study there once a week. Coincidence?
Now let me point out something first to help you understand this fear these demons brought out in me. I have had experiences before. One night, i was extremely depressed, you see i was in rock bands and was losing my hair at the age of 18 when hair was the big thing..i was devastated (young and vain). That night i cursed God with every curse imaginable, standing on the roof of a two story house (must've been one hell of a sight for the neighbours) and challenged Him in my rage...well...He answered immediately to my shock !! What i did was ask a question with cursings, this question i will keep to myself i apologize. Anyway, at the end of my question, still cursing and screaming by this stage, i said put a shooting star through THOSE two stars....$&#%^ NOWWWWWWW %#*!^....yep you guessed it...whoosh !!! Would have more chance winning lotto !! But that still didn't wake me up !?!?!? ....YET. (dumb huh?) i still had lessons to learn the hard way (i was stubborn).
Three nights later after a creepy build up, (to cut a long story short) I was pinned to my bed with this almost transparent, mouthless demon (instead of a mouth, a snout like a WW1 pilots mask) with huge eyes swaying over me screaming a morbid scream directly into my mind, glowing beads of light swaying within its 'flesh', first it started as one voice, it kept adding and adding until there were a multitude of harmonies in that cold heartless relentless scream. I could only see it from it's chest upwards, my legs were kicking frantically, and my jaw felt like a cartoon characters hitting the floor as i tried hopelessly to scream out to my room mates. I was still awake when it struck, only just lying down after turning off the light on a stinking hot summers night...needless to say, i didn't sleep on my back again for nearly 15 years. LOL. That was scary, i got over it though (except sleeping on my back at that stage). It only left when i called out to Jesus in my mind as a last resort (LAST..this still baffles me), this was a big slap from God trying to awaken me i now see...trying to reveal the power in that Name which i was striving against.
Now Another time while on a painting contract lasting over 4 years (i'm getting to the point soon), a group of us were staying in a "haunted" house rented by our employer (long way from home), and the boys were too scared to stay there alone (cheap rent too, i only just realized !!), LOL, i thought this funny (the boys scared), and would mock the 'entities' when alone (they'd go home over the weekend & i'd stay there alone) calling them (spirits) cowards, & how anybody could hide in the shadows scaring people, i basically was spitting at them. One night i woke with a start and knew something was entering my room. My adrenaline kicked in as i spotted this large black shape hovering towards my bed, darker than my dark room, my senses were sharp as a knife, everything was so clear and detailed and in slow motion, i almost had night vision !! i felt in danger for sure. I was pumped..i waited until it was just about over me till i leapt at it throwing a volley of punches (i felt like superman, the punches seemed supernaturally fast
) until wham, i ran out of bed space in my forward pushing assualt, stumbled off of my bed, kicked my toes against my weights, and smashed my head hard into the wall...LOL... I reckon i won that one nevertheless, hehe..joking..
This is just an example of how i became towards them before those two weeks of terror. I was NOT scared of these cowards as i considered them then. THEN, but THIS new assault was different...O the hate, the hate and the real sense they wanted to really really hurt me was INTENSE!! SINCE that night that i rang Journey (at the end of those two weeks), She and Wakeup got on their knees at that very moment and commanded the spirits out of my house in the name of the Lord, and that was it...it was over..i didn't really think it would stop them (spirits) but it did. Asta la vista baby. I slept well that night !! Well, i haven't looked back since, and since submitting to God, emptying out my own precepts and learning anew, my life is not even a shadow of what i once was.
Now blaspheming the Holy Spirit. Since i was not at that POINT in Gods care, and since i was IGNORANT, how could i be guilty of blaspheming the Holy Ghost? Only believers can do this sin. How can unbelievers or part time believers blaspheme something they don't believe in or fully understand? They can dishonor Him yes, a nasty one also, but blaspheme something they know little or nothing about?? You see, i came to realize that this is what it is...When one IS with the Lord, and his body is inhabited by the Holy Spirit, and someone asks you something about God, and you knowing the answer, but for whatever reason (peer pressure, trying to impress a girl etc etc, to keep a job or religious position (think of the rabbis who believed Jesus yet rejected Him for their office))and lie about the TRUTH, this is ONE HUGE INSULT to God. It shows that from 1st place in your heart, you have delegated Him to 2nd 3rd or 4th place in an instant, for PERSONAL gain. And this after knowing Him !!! WOW, this is very very bad. This is trampling Him while having experienced Him, this is blasphemy supreme. You are now compromised and can expect the worst..THIS is why the angels find themselves in such HUGE trouble, they knew God, lived in heaven, and yet still rebelled !!
But like i hinted at, many Christians are not "there" yet in the true sense of the Word, PLEASE don't be insulted, i was like this to0 96% of my life, many have not yet truly submitted and gotten to know Him...YET. MANY HAVE. So don't despair, if you have done this, yet still hold many of your own precepts (of course you wouldn't know this YET, like i didn't, lol, this is why it's not explained, it is instead perceived), and are as God says, drunk on WINE (doctrines), you are not condemned...but still, it's not a practice we should ever entertain (blaspheming the Holy Ghost), and now you've heard this, you should NEVER do it NOW (this is good for you to know). So lying while knowing the truth for the sake of others while KNOWING the Lord with His Spirit indwelling within you, is what is blaspheming the Holy Spirit. We should all be made aware. I hope you enjoyed this only personal epic i'll only ever bore you with just this once...
Regards
Devolution.
Now during my life, when i was in my sins, i realized there were moments when i might have been guilty of this? Those days are a haze ! Am i now condemned? one would be fair to ask/accuse? NO, not then, but YES, if i did this NOW, i definitely would be. Please let me explain.
All my life, i thought i knew God. Or at least thought i knew enough about God. I started reading the bible at 8 years of age, i was pretending to be a priest even earlier, i used to cut up my mums old dresses and draw a big cross on them, and use them as my robes...i know, i know...LOL. I even had Catholic memorabilia and a small plastic statue of Mary...shock horror!! LOL, you should know what i mean here by shock horror if you have read my speaking out against this practice..
Now as i grew, i went through periods of reading and periods of long neglect. So since i was 'dabbling' in God, i was not yet dedicated to Him in the true sense of the word. And since not dedicated, i was not obeying the greatest commandment, and that is To Love the Lord your God with all your heart mind and soul. So since i had other desires before God in my heart, He would not draw close to me, and i could not draw close to Him. It was a long distance relationship !! And i continued obeying those other things that were above Him in my heart. Sins i enjoyed...I was a Christian by name only.
So as a consequence, my understanding was polluted, in other words, my understanding was just that..MINE and not His. Now when one is in this state, one is not yet truly His by the letter. Don't take this literally please, for God knows who are His and He draws those He chooses, therefore, even a person in their sins who may not YET have an interest in God, or dedicated, does not mean this will always be the case. This is an example of God telling us not to judge others. What He means is we can not judge who will be saved or who won't. Because only God knows that, and if you knew me say 5 years ago, you would probably see me as a lost cause regardless of my belief.
Now as i came to a low point in my life, (i wondered why i smelt like dung, didn't realize it was because i was swimming in it, lol) something happened to me. I was demonically tormented for two weeks night and DAY..visually !! Black black shapes darker than night, at least 5 minute intervals when they'd manifest and dart towards/by me, emitting such hatred towards me it was nerve racking. I was petrified, and by the end of the second week, after constant failed commands to cast them away in Christs name, realizing i was not protected after all, after two weeks of this fear and this soul crushing realization, feeling abandoned by God, this was the most emotional catalyst, i broke down and cried which was a hard thing to make me do back then with my luke warm heart..
That night, after watching glowing whisps of "smoke" (at times they glowed) before my face in my room (again) whilst attempting to sleep in a house i was alone in those two weeks, feeling that hatred and sense of constant imminent danger eminating from them, and expecting at any moment a demonic face to push through the haze and swallow my soul, not to mention the sucking sounds coming OUT of my right ear before they'd appear at night (a clue that they were IN me), i made an urgent emotional call to my now brethren Journey41. She happened as it were, to be that particular night, without me knowing, at my soon to be teachers house, Wakeup, of which she'd study there once a week. Coincidence?
Now let me point out something first to help you understand this fear these demons brought out in me. I have had experiences before. One night, i was extremely depressed, you see i was in rock bands and was losing my hair at the age of 18 when hair was the big thing..i was devastated (young and vain). That night i cursed God with every curse imaginable, standing on the roof of a two story house (must've been one hell of a sight for the neighbours) and challenged Him in my rage...well...He answered immediately to my shock !! What i did was ask a question with cursings, this question i will keep to myself i apologize. Anyway, at the end of my question, still cursing and screaming by this stage, i said put a shooting star through THOSE two stars....$&#%^ NOWWWWWWW %#*!^....yep you guessed it...whoosh !!! Would have more chance winning lotto !! But that still didn't wake me up !?!?!? ....YET. (dumb huh?) i still had lessons to learn the hard way (i was stubborn).
Three nights later after a creepy build up, (to cut a long story short) I was pinned to my bed with this almost transparent, mouthless demon (instead of a mouth, a snout like a WW1 pilots mask) with huge eyes swaying over me screaming a morbid scream directly into my mind, glowing beads of light swaying within its 'flesh', first it started as one voice, it kept adding and adding until there were a multitude of harmonies in that cold heartless relentless scream. I could only see it from it's chest upwards, my legs were kicking frantically, and my jaw felt like a cartoon characters hitting the floor as i tried hopelessly to scream out to my room mates. I was still awake when it struck, only just lying down after turning off the light on a stinking hot summers night...needless to say, i didn't sleep on my back again for nearly 15 years. LOL. That was scary, i got over it though (except sleeping on my back at that stage). It only left when i called out to Jesus in my mind as a last resort (LAST..this still baffles me), this was a big slap from God trying to awaken me i now see...trying to reveal the power in that Name which i was striving against.
Now Another time while on a painting contract lasting over 4 years (i'm getting to the point soon), a group of us were staying in a "haunted" house rented by our employer (long way from home), and the boys were too scared to stay there alone (cheap rent too, i only just realized !!), LOL, i thought this funny (the boys scared), and would mock the 'entities' when alone (they'd go home over the weekend & i'd stay there alone) calling them (spirits) cowards, & how anybody could hide in the shadows scaring people, i basically was spitting at them. One night i woke with a start and knew something was entering my room. My adrenaline kicked in as i spotted this large black shape hovering towards my bed, darker than my dark room, my senses were sharp as a knife, everything was so clear and detailed and in slow motion, i almost had night vision !! i felt in danger for sure. I was pumped..i waited until it was just about over me till i leapt at it throwing a volley of punches (i felt like superman, the punches seemed supernaturally fast
) until wham, i ran out of bed space in my forward pushing assualt, stumbled off of my bed, kicked my toes against my weights, and smashed my head hard into the wall...LOL... I reckon i won that one nevertheless, hehe..joking..This is just an example of how i became towards them before those two weeks of terror. I was NOT scared of these cowards as i considered them then. THEN, but THIS new assault was different...O the hate, the hate and the real sense they wanted to really really hurt me was INTENSE!! SINCE that night that i rang Journey (at the end of those two weeks), She and Wakeup got on their knees at that very moment and commanded the spirits out of my house in the name of the Lord, and that was it...it was over..i didn't really think it would stop them (spirits) but it did. Asta la vista baby. I slept well that night !! Well, i haven't looked back since, and since submitting to God, emptying out my own precepts and learning anew, my life is not even a shadow of what i once was.
Now blaspheming the Holy Spirit. Since i was not at that POINT in Gods care, and since i was IGNORANT, how could i be guilty of blaspheming the Holy Ghost? Only believers can do this sin. How can unbelievers or part time believers blaspheme something they don't believe in or fully understand? They can dishonor Him yes, a nasty one also, but blaspheme something they know little or nothing about?? You see, i came to realize that this is what it is...When one IS with the Lord, and his body is inhabited by the Holy Spirit, and someone asks you something about God, and you knowing the answer, but for whatever reason (peer pressure, trying to impress a girl etc etc, to keep a job or religious position (think of the rabbis who believed Jesus yet rejected Him for their office))and lie about the TRUTH, this is ONE HUGE INSULT to God. It shows that from 1st place in your heart, you have delegated Him to 2nd 3rd or 4th place in an instant, for PERSONAL gain. And this after knowing Him !!! WOW, this is very very bad. This is trampling Him while having experienced Him, this is blasphemy supreme. You are now compromised and can expect the worst..THIS is why the angels find themselves in such HUGE trouble, they knew God, lived in heaven, and yet still rebelled !!
But like i hinted at, many Christians are not "there" yet in the true sense of the Word, PLEASE don't be insulted, i was like this to0 96% of my life, many have not yet truly submitted and gotten to know Him...YET. MANY HAVE. So don't despair, if you have done this, yet still hold many of your own precepts (of course you wouldn't know this YET, like i didn't, lol, this is why it's not explained, it is instead perceived), and are as God says, drunk on WINE (doctrines), you are not condemned...but still, it's not a practice we should ever entertain (blaspheming the Holy Ghost), and now you've heard this, you should NEVER do it NOW (this is good for you to know). So lying while knowing the truth for the sake of others while KNOWING the Lord with His Spirit indwelling within you, is what is blaspheming the Holy Spirit. We should all be made aware. I hope you enjoyed this only personal epic i'll only ever bore you with just this once...
Regards
Devolution.
