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  1. Taking That Step as a Child of God

    by , 1 Day Ago at 06:27 PM
    I went walking yesterday, in a place full of hills and climbing. At one point I was behind a father and young daughter - she was no more than 4 years old, and he held her hand tightly as they walked along over these bumps and hills. Her father always took the rockier ground and guided her small feet over the smoother terrain, holding her with complete confidence. She in turn walked confidently, taking every guidance from her father and she clearly had unfaltering trust in him and his direction. ...
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  2. Owning Up.

    by , 1 Week Ago at 08:14 PM
    So much has happened in 2017, starting with possibly the biggest mistake of my life. I have worn myself out emotionally going over the whole messy thing these last months, and am finally reaching closure (I think). I finally understand what went wrong.

    I got comfortable. I felt safe. I have been a Christian for years now and I go to church regularly, volunteer within church, do my best to be a "good" person and all that. I was reading my Bible and praying just regularly enough ...
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  3. Tonight I was brave

    by , February 5th, 2017 at 09:28 PM
    So tonight I face my fears and stepped out in faith. It was hard. It may sound like such a silly, simple thing. Something most of us do every week, if not more than once a week. I went to church. This isn't something new for me, by any means. I have been doing some wandering and soul searching lately though. Both through difficult circumstances (see earlier blogs for more - but a damaged, and damaging, relationship caused me to withdraw from church for a while there) and a nudge in my soul was telling ...
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  4. Coming Undone

    by , February 4th, 2017 at 09:15 PM
    I have been on a rollercoaster these past weeks. I've had some highs when I could reach out and touch the sky, after some steep uphill climbs, followed by some stomach-churning drops, followed by a sense of relief as my rollercoaster slows and steadies a little - if only temporarily. I a left with a constant knot in my stomach though, and a tightness in my chest even after my racing heart slows down again.

    I feel as though I have gone through at least half of the stages of moving on ...
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  5. The War I'm Waging

    by , January 7th, 2017 at 09:18 PM
    I've made a mess lately, and have been struggling to deal with the aftermath of my own stupidity. I made a horrible mistake kissing a friend who has a girlfriend, something I never imagined I would be capable of. I blocked it out for the first few days and just pushed it down as deep as I could before I couldn't take it any longer. We ended up talking so that I could get things clear in my head. It actually helped, and will help me move on in the long run, but he has said after that we can meet ...
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