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  1. 2014

    by , April 12th, 2015 at 06:47 PM (Thankfulness in the midst of being Single day 1)
    in 2014, for the first time, i was able to verbally speak out in group that i enjoy masturbation...... group was a good thing, ... but by the spring we all felt we were ready to move on into life, this time, my counselor was leaving and i needed a different counselor, now i chose one that particiipated in group... i didn't really like her at first, since last year, i have come to say she has been what i needed,, by this time in 2014, i believed and trusted God that things would work out.. but i ...
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  2. 2013

    by , April 12th, 2015 at 06:40 PM (Thankfulness in the midst of being Single day 1)
    by 2013, i was starting to see hope,... it amazes me now, to think , how did i get through the last several years, i just remember the darkness and sadness, ... i never lost my job thorugh that, never lost my leadership position at church through it all, which sometimes i think i should have... but i had been honest with the pastor from the beginnning ...so for some reason he didn't think it was neccissary for me to lose it... i was trying to overcome...by this time, I was thinking i was going to ...
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  3. 2012

    by , April 12th, 2015 at 06:32 PM (Thankfulness in the midst of being Single day 1)
    i ended up going to two different counseling services, if someone asked me in person, i would speak positive for both,, circumstances just got me to the second service, my first counselor...J realized she had to get me to see how beautiful that i am... i didn't like myself, but it went even deeper then the addiction, the addiction was just an outward sign of issues on the inside... now, i do a lot of research on my own and had known for several years that i have the characteristics of Borderline ...
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  4. 2011

    by , April 12th, 2015 at 06:16 PM (Thankfulness in the midst of being Single day 1)
    rolling into 2011, i was still struggling with depression, trying to see the positive, emailing my pastor, drinking, even though the amount of alcohol that i consumed wasn't much, it was like, i would think on it all day long, i couldn't wait to go home and have a drink, .... i was though starting to see some good days, by memorial weekend, the saturday morning , i woke up and heard the thought that i was going to be ok, when my dear "mother" died.. that monday, she died... at her funeral, ...
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  5. 2010

    by , April 12th, 2015 at 06:05 PM (Thankfulness in the midst of being Single day 1)
    I had always known depression, but except for a period in my youth, when i was suicidal, i was able to handle the negativity...this was bc God had put a person in my life that would support me, and be proud of me. we had our ups and downs but bc she was there, like a mother, i knew everything was going to be ok... I became a child of God when i was 19, living with this lovely lady most of that time...in 2010, she was about to die.... It occurred to me, even though i didn't live with her at that ...
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