A Place Called Desolation
by, May 9th, 2014 at 04:13 PM (846 Views)
It happen suddenly but was not totally unexpected as nothing really surprises me anymore. In February of this year my darling wife died after years of suffering from the debilitating effects of arthritis and psoriasis. She had numerous other health issues as well but not mentioned in this post. For years I would pray for healing but was always willing to accept God's will for her life.
The last several years she was confined to a nursing home as she could no longer walk or easily take care of herself. Her condition deteriorated to the point where I could no longer take care of her as I was not qualified to do so as she was in constant need of skilled nursing.
The official cause of death was a pulmonary embolism but truthfully, due to the constant pain and anxiety and a horrible quality of life she simply lost the will to live.
On the last day of her life I had prayed to my Heavenly Father not for healing, but for a host of angels to carry her to heaven. Above all else, I prayed for his will, and not mine be done for my wife.
I take comfort in knowing that she is in my Heavenly Father's capable hands and is no longer suffering.
Right now I am an place of abject desolation. Loneliness is my disease, and isolation my friend.