by, September 24th, 2014 at 05:43 AM (604 Views)
(Not a poem)
Wondering what the future might have in store..
Not sure of anything anymore..
wanting to believe but feeling so deceived.
If my faith wasn’t enough.. how much more could I have believed? I believed with all my heart. Now it seems I am still not further than where I began and the road ahead looks like a dead end.
I know I’m supposed to keep believing but there is hardly a wind left in my sail. I feel my ship has been damaged beyond repair and may never be able to set a new course again..
Be still sayeth the Lord, but what if all I see is darkness with no safe shore and no light in sight..
Maybe this too will pass.. maybe somehow all is not lost and a good end is still somewhere on the horizon.. but this to me is like believing in a fairy tale right now..
Is it better to face the reality and accept what seems inevitable.. or believe in a miracle even though your heart has grown weary at the thought of it ever happening..
To be continued……..