My deepest condolences, honeybee. I can't imagine the pain you are going through right now. Unfortunately, no one will ever fully meet your need to communicate like your husband did -- at least not in the foreseeable future.
Please talk to God -- He understands and He will comfort you. I know it's not the same as having your husband with you, but it's the best alternative and you will be greatly blessed by leaning on Him at this time.
I would also encourage you to join a group of other grieving spouses. Sharing your experiences with people going through the same process will also encourage you.
I will be praying for you at this great time of sorrow. May God send His Comforter to your aid.