divorce has found its way into my life

[Lkbroom]

[FONT=Bitstream Vera Serif, Times New Roman, serif]ok so here is the dirt. I am bipolar and am schizophrenic and have major depressive disorder. I am disabled because of the mental disorder. My wife and i have separated but have not got the divorce yet. I live with her as a room mate and look after my kids. I know this is very hard for me right now. I was told that She hasn't wanted to be married for years now and that she wants to be with women as well as men. I know for the past two years we have not been together. We currently live together but have separate rooms and all. We are only doing this for the kids. I am very down on myself right now. I feel like i'm not gonna find anyone who would want to even date me. I say this because i have several friends telling me I should try and date... I m just struggling with lots of stuff right now, faith is one, my out look on life and just self worth. I try to keep praying but just struggle with it. I really don't know why I'm here, i guess its to vent.[/FONT]

 

[Rosesrock]

Ugh hard situation. Im not sure why you're here, but i do know the Lord listens when we vent. Nothing surprises God

 

[JesusLives]

You are still young and sorry to hear of the troubles you are dealing with. You are still married and still living in the same place....Why don't you take this time to get closer to God.

Open your Bible and read the chapter of John it tells all about the love of God. His love for you and the sacrifice Jesus made for you. It is a love story of God's never ending pursuit of us. Don't worry about if another woman will love you learn to trust and have faith in God.

Give God all your burdens and ask Him to help you get through this tough time. Spend time with your children loving them. What you are going through is not easy, but God is with you through this trial learn to lean on Him.

Dear Father In Heaven

Please be with Lkbroom and help him as he is going through this hurtful trial. Give him the strength he will need and help him to trust and lean on You. Help him with the burdens he is dealing with and the medical issues he has. Please touch his wife's heart and help them to seek help. In Jesus Name Amen

Have you considered marriage counseling? Talked to your Pastor about your troubles? You may want to do that also....

 

[Angela53510]

Not sure about the diagnosis. Would you mean you have Schizoaffective Disorder? That is when you have the symptoms of both bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. Plus, why would you add "Major Depressive Episode" when depression is already included under the bipolar diagnosis? Major usually refers to people who do not have bipolar - just depression.

What kind of meds are you taking for your mental health? Are you eating properly and exercising daily? Those both can have a real influence on mood swings.

As far as your marriage, I know it is difficult to live with someone who is mentally ill, even if they are on good meds. But that does not mean you both should not be trying. As far as her desire to be with a woman, I will bet this is just because of all the publicity the "gay" lifestyle is getting. I know most gay people are not that "gay." Most lesbians have suffered terrible abuse at the hands of men, especially sexual, and their relationships do not last long, because of that dysfunction.

I agree with JesusLives, that now is the time to get closer to Jesus. That means reading your Bible, going to church and finding Christian friends and probably a Christian mentor.

 

[Jesus4ever]

So sorry to know what you´re going through...! It may be hard, but do whatever you can to get closer to God, brother! Cling to Jesus! I prayed for you, brother!

May God bless you, your wife and your children!