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Around this time last year, I was upset because my husband had stopped having sex with me. For five years, I couldn't understand what was wrong but I continued to be faithful and be a good wife and mother. I desperatley tried my best to work things out but nothing seemed to work. I found out later that my husband had been having affairs with prostitutes. He admitted to sleeping with 14 different women and some of them multiple times. I was heartbroken and I tried to kick him out of the house but he wouldn't leave and I learned that legally he didnt have to. You can't kick someone out of their house because of infidelity. So he stayed. Fast forward a little bit and we ended up having sex and I got pregnant on the first time. I thought with me being pregnant things would change and our marriage would work out but my suspicions arouse again. He would look for reasons to leave the house and come home with the car smelling like febreeze or perfume. Even our five year old daughter smelled perfume on him once. Also, his monthly bank transactions stopped comming in the mail. I would question him but he would deny things every time. I was hurt again pregnant and vulnerable. Then there's this guy. He's an older man, very attractive, intelligent, nice and overall a very beautiful person. The first time I saw him I was attracted to him and even though I was married and pregnant, I flirted with him a little bit. I knew it was wrong but it was fun. I'm what you call painfully shy and I usually don't do things like that so I was totally out of my element. He caught on and ever since then there has kind of been this tension between us. I don't think either of us would act on it but just the thought alone excites me. I feel so bad for feeling like this but I guess I just need someone to love me.