Could anyone who has been married for Swahili and have overcome obsticles in your marriage thought CHRIST give any insight or what you've experienced?
I fee like I've married someone that not with me for better or for worse. And that's a problem for me because I come from a past of abandonment from people who where close to me.
Right now, you need to deal first with your own issues. Fear of abandonment can be a sign of borderline personality disorder. It may be that you are very clingy and demanding of your husband. Or not!
So please see a doctor and get yourself help. Next, see a pastor or certified Christian psychologist for marriage counseling. My husband and I had some major issues about 10 years ago and we saw a professional 4 times. That's right - only 4 times. The first thing she made my husband do, was see a psychiatrist for his depression, which was verging on psychosis. Just the meds made about 1000% difference.
She also showed him in several ways he was paranoid about my behaviour. Plus she gave me an excellent book to work on my trigger points, and things to work on to make me more reasonable. It has been an amazing journey, together!
We are doing better than ever, after 35 years. I am chronically ill, but God has given me several ministries which my husband supports. He has become a completely different person. He listens, empathizes, and is kind and caring when my disability means I cannot walk, dress or feed myself. He didn't know how to do that before.
Oh, yes! And pray, pray, pray! Even when your marriage changes, keep praying for him. It is the least God expects we do for our spouse.