Stuck

[Love559]

I have been feeling stuck lately. I've been feeling depressed and tired of life! I pray alot at night before to bed so I can die in my sleep. I pray before I get in my car so maybe an accident can happen and i could die. I feel like I have alot of weight on my shoulders. My dad has been really sick lately and he owns a small business so he hasn't been working for like 1 week and half so it's my mom working instead of him (working for him) and its alot of work for the my mom and family and the doctor says that he is sick because of all the stress he has.. Plus his blood pressure is super high all the time and his meds don't seems to work and it can lead him to have a heart attack\stroke....... and my 9yr little sister cries and says she feels like killing herself and it crushes my heart to hear that. I don't know what to do I just want to cry and cry and feel so tired of everything and my life is messed up and unorganized and plus I don't feel like going to school anymore Because I feel like I don't even like anyone at that school anymore and my grades are bad and everyone is so fake and stupid. And now I'm worried for my mom to because she hasn't been feeling good lately either and I'm scared I will lose my mom or dad . I feel like I'm not doing enough to help but it's hard because I'm in charge of cleaning the house ect. And plus I have school. I just need God to give me patience and love for people and everything. I need him to give me hope

 

[tourist]

I will pray for God to give you His blessed assured hope that things will dramatically improve for you and your family.

 

[blue_ladybug]

Read my suicide and depression threads, below in my signature. Guaranteed to inspire you.

 

[Depleted]

I have been feeling stuck lately. I've been feeling depressed and tired of life! I pray alot at night before to bed so I can die in my sleep. I pray before I get in my car so maybe an accident can happen and i could die. I feel like I have alot of weight on my shoulders. My dad has been really sick lately and he owns a small business so he hasn't been working for like 1 week and half so it's my mom working instead of him (working for him) and its alot of work for the my mom and family and the doctor says that he is sick because of all the stress he has.. Plus his blood pressure is super high all the time and his meds don't seems to work and it can lead him to have a heart attack\stroke....... and my 9yr little sister cries and says she feels like killing herself and it crushes my heart to hear that. I don't know what to do I just want to cry and cry and feel so tired of everything and my life is messed up and unorganized and plus I don't feel like going to school anymore Because I feel like I don't even like anyone at that school anymore and my grades are bad and everyone is so fake and stupid. And now I'm worried for my mom to because she hasn't been feeling good lately either and I'm scared I will lose my mom or dad . I feel like I'm not doing enough to help but it's hard because I'm in charge of cleaning the house ect. And plus I have school. I just need God to give me patience and love for people and everything. I need him to give me hope

So your family has a lot of problems but your solution is to kill yourself (maybe accidentally even.) How does that help your family?

What helps depression a bit is to stop focusing on self. The two greatest commandments are to love God fully and to love others as much as you love self. You know how much you love self. How about dumping that self love onto others? It does wonders.

 

[JosephsDreams]

Praying for you and your family.

 

[JosephsDreams]

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[Dan58]

Doesn't sound like a happy family... You've got to step-up and be the rock, your little sister's attitude is probably just a refection of all the depressing talk, it can be contagious if your surrounded by gloom and doom everyday. Your Dad can't handle work and you don't like school, but venting doesn't change a thing. Many people find themselves in similar situations, afflictions hit us all, but pray for the strength to endure and keep your head up. One thing I've noticed is that many people try to live way beyond their means, and stress is a result of financial pressures. While I know none of the details, perhaps your parents can downsize a bit to take some of the burden off their shoulders? Sometimes we need to put 'happy' on a shelf and just focus on survival. "There hath no temptation taken hold of you but such as is common to man. But God is faithful; He will not suffer you to be tempted beyond that which ye are able to bear, but with the temptation will also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it" (1 Corinthians 10:13)... jmo

 

[Depleted]

So your family has a lot of problems but your solution is to kill yourself (maybe accidentally even.) How does that help your family?

What helps depression a bit is to stop focusing on self. The two greatest commandments are to love God fully and to love others as much as you love self. You know how much you love self. How about dumping that self love onto others? It does wonders.

Just to be clear, cleaning the house is a biggie! You ARE helping others. You are helping family. I get vacuuming and cleaning the kitchen feels like an utter waste of time when everything seems like it's spinning apart, but I cannot think of anything kinder and sweeter to do then pick up the slack that your parents can't do right now.

One other thing might help you and your sister. You have a car! She's 9. Take her somewhere just to have fun together. Remember fun? It still exists. Today was very windy around here. What I wouldn't have given to fly a kite in this weather. (I suspect it was too windy for a kite.) How about looking at the spring foliage? Any lilac bushes around you, because they're just starting to bloom here. So try and find spring flowers together and help her make it into a nice bouquet for her room. She's a girl. She thinks it's special when an older sister isn't afraid to do girly things with her. If she's not into girly things, climb a tree with her. Make a fort. (Nine year olds usually like making a fort. So do adults, but most don't have the time or the excuse to make one. Nine year old is a great excuse.)

Your family has forgotten how to have fun. A very loving thing to do is you and your little sister do something fun together. It will be good for you and her.

And then since you get chores anyway, another fun thing would be for you and her to figure out a good dinner to have to give your mom a surprise so she remembers there is fun in life. And then the two of you work on it together and let her do as much as is safe for her to do.

Honest, there is fun. Work on it. For your sake. For your sister's sake. For your family's sake.

 

[integerlost]

I have been feeling stuck lately. I've been feeling depressed and tired of life! I pray alot at night before to bed so I can die in my sleep. I pray before I get in my car so maybe an accident can happen and i could die. I feel like I have alot of weight on my shoulders. My dad has been really sick lately and he owns a small business so he hasn't been working for like 1 week and half so it's my mom working instead of him (working for him) and its alot of work for the my mom and family and the doctor says that he is sick because of all the stress he has.. Plus his blood pressure is super high all the time and his meds don't seems to work and it can lead him to have a heart attack\stroke....... and my 9yr little sister cries and says she feels like killing herself and it crushes my heart to hear that. I don't know what to do I just want to cry and cry and feel so tired of everything and my life is messed up and unorganized and plus I don't feel like going to school anymore Because I feel like I don't even like anyone at that school anymore and my grades are bad and everyone is so fake and stupid. And now I'm worried for my mom to because she hasn't been feeling good lately either and I'm scared I will lose my mom or dad . I feel like I'm not doing enough to help but it's hard because I'm in charge of cleaning the house ect. And plus I have school. I just need God to give me patience and love for people and everything. I need him to give me hope

You don't need to get patience, God already put it there. You don't need to get hope or love, God already put that there too. Everything you need is right there inside you, God put a seed there when he made you and all you have to do is water it.

 

[Plus2]

I don't need to tell you that hurting yourself is not the answer. I'm sure you can imagine the pain that would cause your family, especially your sister. But I can tell you that you are not alone and it will get better. I will be praying for you guys! Message me anytime you need someone to talk to, vent to or just a distraction!

 

[Violet24]

Love559, I hope your are feeling encouraged, as there are some great words of wisdom & prayers posted here for you. So I just want to stand in agreement with those who have prayed for you & your family. There's one thing that I just want to add & hopefully you will let these words reach into your heart & spirit. Jesus Love You!! He has a divine plan for your life, but You need to simply come before the foot of the cross, into Jesus arms and lay all these burdens down. Allow yourself to Trust Jesus completely with your life. Jesus wants to breath new life within you, but you need to be willing to surrender it all to him. I understand that it can be overwhelming to see everything that seems wrong in your life, & all the pain your are feeling, but just know we've all been through difficult times, as life is full of valleys & mountain tops joys. Jesus says that even our faith is a gift from Him, so all you need to do is Receive from the Lord your Strength for Today. Each new day, the Lord will begin building strength into your life. He wants you to be a beacon of Light for those in your family who may not know the Lord. Philippians 4:13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength. Lord Jesus, cover this family with your healing presence & may there be a renewed faith in you. Bring Strength & Hope! In Jesus name...

 

[Acr96]

I pray for you. God is your strength. Philippines 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengths me. I know things seemed unorganized and hectic, but just continue to pray, pray, pray. I will pray for you too. Try talking to your parents and come up with a solution so the work load isn't all on one single person. I comend you for stepping up and helping your parents in this time, but don't forget to take a little time for yourself. Just set aside maybe 30 mins a day to do something that makes you happy. God bless you, and I pray God to strength you and wrap his arms around you. For the Holy Ghost to comfort you and be your guide.

 

[ladybugg]

Hi there,Its sad to hear your story, and what worries me is that You and your sister are still at school, which is enough to cope with as it is. Its not fair that adult issues have become your problem, you are unable to fix or deal with it. So what i suggest is that you go to your church Pastor and share this burden with him, if you don,t belong to a church, find one and share it with the Pastor, you are too young to be dealing with this kind of stress. I will pray for your family as I know what a dysfunctional family is like and what it does to the kids living in the mess. This is no ones fault, its life and life happens, just remember God is in charge and He is larger than the mess. God be with you and your family, you are in my prayers. Take care of yourself.

 

[GraceRevelation]

Awww sweetie. First off DO NOT accept sickness. We are the believers and children of the almighty GOD! Where does sickness come from? The devil. Jesus died on the cross for? Our sins and he paid for our SICKNESS. Command that sickness to go in Jesus name! It has no place staying in a holy spirit filled christian. Look up Joseph Prince. He has a video on communion on his web page. You and your family should do this daily for your dads health and anything else.