sad, crying moments

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seraphprincess

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I have recently become closer to the Lord, I got saved as a child, come from a Christian, southern baptist family. I have trouble going to church because I can't drive. My parents don't want to go. I had trouble with my faith because I was into fantasy, like fairies, unicorns and dragons, learned about other religions and mythology. I tested my faith in the God of the Bible and Jesus Christ, Christ showed his great love for me, Jesus saved me from myself, he saved me from the Devil's lies.

I still suffer from depression. I have been seeing psychiatrists since I was 12. I was diagnosed with manic depression. Sometimes it feels like my heart is broken and I cry for at least an hour. I can be extremely sensitive and cry at the least little thing. I am trying to obey the Lord and do what is right. I pray and read the Bible, I pray a lot, even if it's just little short prayers. I pray for people I see on TV, on the news or people I meet in the stores, in real life.


God fillls me with his love, but sometimes it hurts. To see other people suffering, it is like I suffer with them. I have also become disgusted with the sinful, foolish worldly things, sinful, frivolous perverted obscene violent, evil treacherous TV shows and movies. Some family members are in spiritual danger, I pray for them, sometimes it feels like God is not listening. My parents are no longer southern baptists, they became disgusted with "religious right" politics, my dad does not like deceptive politicians using religion for their advantage, how they encourage extremist hateful right wing politics.

I wish he would stop thinking about politics all the time. I help out my parents because they are getting old and need help, the Bible says to honor your father and mother. My mom and dad told me everyone should be treated with kindness and respect. Sometimes I feel like I hate myself, nothing I do is good enough, I just want to lie in bed and cry. I hate this world that is evil, cruel, unfair, violent, destructive, lying, greedy, selfish, impatient and uncaring. When I read history books it makes me feel sad, the history of Christianity is sad, we are all flawed and sinful, that is why Christian leaders of the past relied on brute force, military might, and forced people to convert to Christianity or die.


This is what breaks my heart. Is God better than this? Why does it have to be this way?
 

blue_ladybug

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Because it's all of God's end plan. We may suffer in this world, but in heaven there won't be ANY suffering at all. :)
 

seraphprincess

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Thank you for responding, blue ladybug. I like ladybugs they are good for gardens. Crying has a cathartic effect on me. I feel better now. I know I should not be so concerned with my own feelings. I have heard it said that when a Christian is getting closer to the Lord, the Devil attacks and tries to separate them, to make things harder for the praying Christian and weaken them. i read in the Bible, Romans and 1 Corinthians about sin and the law, and Jesus freeing us from sin with his own death on the cross. I know that the Lord uses the weak and humble things of the world to shame and confuse the powerful strong and wise of the world, when we are in Jesus He takes our weakness and makes it strength. His grace is enough. I have read about grace recently too. Like the song, His grace is amazing.
 
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SariRedd

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Seraphprincess
I'm looking for support or advice on how to compose my emotions as well. I know love is my gift. Lately I'm so overwhelmed with hurting for others, I'm not annoyed by being overly conscientious of others feeling or situations, but my fix it complex is killing me when I cannot make things better for someone. Seraph the way my phyciatrist explained the 3 depressions really helped me. I have never suffered mania, but I will always have depression it's genetic in my case. I have the picture perfect life, but if I don't take my meds my emotions totally run me, and I would dehydrate my body from crying!! Sounds like you also have an overwhelming love for others. . Much love to you
 

Angela53510

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What I'm hearing you say, is that you are depressed. Things always look negative or hopeless when you are depressed. That is part of what depression is.

So my question is, why are you not taking meds for bipolar disorder? You have a disease, and you need treatment. If it is a matter of money, many of the drug companies will help you pay for the medications.

I truly believe that God helps us when we are low. But for serious mental illness, you do need to work with a doctor, too!

Finally, honouring your parents doesn't mean giving up your own life. I have sons who are your age, and I certainly would not expect them to give up their lives to take care of me. And I am not old enough to need taking care of, either!

Please get a good doctor, who can help you break out of this pattern of depression, and enabling. And do read a modern version of the Bible every day! God has healed me in amazing ways through the Holy Spirit and reading the Bible daily!
 

GodssSon

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God is absolutely better than this, Seraphprincess! And things happen like this because we're in a "fallen world" and people make wrong/bad choices. It's not God who causes all the corruption. It's not God's plan for all this evil to happen, but He did warn us that it will. I know just how you feel about crying for no reason or feeling so bad for other's pains. I've been there. I can get there again too if I really started thinking about it more and more. Focus your attention on God and not this world (i.e. negative TV shows, music, people). Continue in the Word and then you'll know the truth, and you'll be set free, as it says in John 8:31-32. There are no doubt horrible things in this world and stuff that will come against us. Jesus said in John 16:33, "These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world." You can have peace and happiness in this world and be free of depression or any other type of diagnosis, despite what the doctor's tell you. Jesus' name is above EVERY name (Phil. 2:9), including depression!

If you feel like you need medication, do it to get better. But Jesus is the greatest healer. He doesn't want us focusing on all the bad in the world: "...I want you to be wise in what is good, and simple concerning evil" (Romans 16:19). It will corrupt us to be around stuff like that (1 Cor. 15:33). Think on good things, as God wants us to do so that we may have peace (Phil. 4:8) Listen to good bible-based sermons if you can't make it to church. It will build up faith (Romans 10:17) and His word will give you life and health to your whole body! (Proverbs 4:22).

I'm praying for you! Don't be discouraged. Don't lose hope. Things will get better. We will all be with Jesus soon enough!
 

seraphprincess

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I take medicine prescribed by a psychiatrist. I am feeling better now. my moods come and go. I am not depressed, at least not for today, not now. SariRedd, i would like to encourage and hug you! Pray for everyone you meet and see on TV, just give little 'mini-' prayers. I need to pray and read the Bible more. I am getting better at my daily walk with the Lord. I sometimes have long prayers where I try to think about everyone and everything that needs praying for.
 

seraphprincess

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Sep 5, 2011
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Sometimes I cry because I see other people suffering, especially if it is children or cute animals suffering, women that are helpless under harsh cruel prejudice laws like muslim sharia laws or communism, evil dictators or terrorists, little old ladies living under harsh conditions, men under harsh conditions that are unable to feed their family though they desperately search for jobs.....I know the Lord uses these bad things to work together for good in the end. God became one of us in the form of Jesus Christ, He worked hard, suffered grew, learned, he knew what it was like to be a human being, then he died a horrible death reserved for rebellious slaves. But... it did not end in death. Jesus rose from the grave three days later, defeating death and the devil, so we Christians can go to heaven. I like the Easter holiday, and Christmas holiday. They are such happy holidays to celebrate God's love.
 
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I have recently become closer to the Lord, I got saved as a child, come from a Christian, southern baptist family. I have trouble going to church because I can't drive. My parents don't want to go. I had trouble with my faith because I was into fantasy, like fairies, unicorns and dragons, learned about other religions and mythology. I tested my faith in the God of the Bible and Jesus Christ, Christ showed his great love for me, Jesus saved me from myself, he saved me from the Devil's lies.

I still suffer from depression. I have been seeing psychiatrists since I was 12. I was diagnosed with manic depression. Sometimes it feels like my heart is broken and I cry for at least an hour. I can be extremely sensitive and cry at the least little thing. I am trying to obey the Lord and do what is right. I pray and read the Bible, I pray a lot, even if it's just little short prayers. I pray for people I see on TV, on the news or people I meet in the stores, in real life.


God fillls me with his love, but sometimes it hurts. To see other people suffering, it is like I suffer with them. I have also become disgusted with the sinful, foolish worldly things, sinful, frivolous perverted obscene violent, evil treacherous TV shows and movies. Some family members are in spiritual danger, I pray for them, sometimes it feels like God is not listening. My parents are no longer southern baptists, they became disgusted with "religious right" politics, my dad does not like deceptive politicians using religion for their advantage, how they encourage extremist hateful right wing politics.

I wish he would stop thinking about politics all the time. I help out my parents because they are getting old and need help, the Bible says to honor your father and mother. My mom and dad told me everyone should be treated with kindness and respect. Sometimes I feel like I hate myself, nothing I do is good enough, I just want to lie in bed and cry. I hate this world that is evil, cruel, unfair, violent, destructive, lying, greedy, selfish, impatient and uncaring. When I read history books it makes me feel sad, the history of Christianity is sad, we are all flawed and sinful, that is why Christian leaders of the past relied on brute force, military might, and forced people to convert to Christianity or die.


This is what breaks my heart. Is God better than this? Why does it have to be this way?
i am being honest with you. You brought me to tears, because I feel your pain, but i want you to do something please. I know it is not easy, because I have been through it, but try. It will help.
Please do not tell yourself you are not good enough. Those are the devil words.
Remember how he said that of Job, and then use Job's friends to say the same things.
When I read how you help your parents. Do you know how good that is? Do you know how well you have done. you have done so much more than others. And God loves you even more for that. I love you more for that.
If you keep telling yourself otherwise you are going to sink further and further down, because your mind like a muscle is going to be trained to accept it better and better, more and more, and Satan would win over you.
Do not let him win.
Here remember this:
1 Peter 5:6, 7
6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

I just sent someone some thing that uplifted me. I would like to share it with you.
It's a video with a beautiful song.
I will also share a link to some comforting bible text. Can I give you those links?