Me and my ex(who I live with) tried to reconcile our relationship for the third and final time and after weeks of pure insecurity, anxiety, stress and just general BAD efforts, we failed and are now trying to be civil until we leave(June 3).
Around the time we "tried again" (this went on for almost three weeks) we both met a girl in the year below. She's sweet, young, innocent and actually started talking to the two of us about some work she needed help with. She kind of came from nowhere and I noticed my ex spent a whole two hours with her on that same day. It didnt bother me as I knew he obviously felt strongly for me...and I was happy she made a friend(she's apparently lonely) but......the more the days went on, she began asking him for help..she supposedly quizzed him on what our relationship was(out of mere curiousity) and the next thing I know, I see her name pop up on his phone every ten minutes. I don't know why, but this made me angry. I gave him a third chance and whilst he was taking me to dinner I'd see
"Hey! Ohmygosh I have so much to tell you, I have so much to do and I got so stressed and it was so bad, honestly I'm feeling so crazy right now. Oh by the way how did that thing you told me about go? Xxxx" (kisses mean ALOT in England by the way haha)
Basically, they are eachother confidantes. And I can't handle this. He told me once a few years back(before we dated) "I always need someone there." I know what's going on here, and I can't stand it. He got me to believe he was serious about giving this another go and I took him back and became codependent ... He also swore that he is NOT into her but last night I saw her name on his phone again, and he even has a cute nickname for her which I can't get out of my head.
Before I fall to pieces, what can I do?
I've prayed about it but when I pray he seems to waltz back into my head and I see all of his good sides. I sometimes think if God is trying to teach me a lesson as this is the hardest thing I've ever had to go through...
Around the time we "tried again" (this went on for almost three weeks) we both met a girl in the year below. She's sweet, young, innocent and actually started talking to the two of us about some work she needed help with. She kind of came from nowhere and I noticed my ex spent a whole two hours with her on that same day. It didnt bother me as I knew he obviously felt strongly for me...and I was happy she made a friend(she's apparently lonely) but......the more the days went on, she began asking him for help..she supposedly quizzed him on what our relationship was(out of mere curiousity) and the next thing I know, I see her name pop up on his phone every ten minutes. I don't know why, but this made me angry. I gave him a third chance and whilst he was taking me to dinner I'd see
"Hey! Ohmygosh I have so much to tell you, I have so much to do and I got so stressed and it was so bad, honestly I'm feeling so crazy right now. Oh by the way how did that thing you told me about go? Xxxx" (kisses mean ALOT in England by the way haha)
Basically, they are eachother confidantes. And I can't handle this. He told me once a few years back(before we dated) "I always need someone there." I know what's going on here, and I can't stand it. He got me to believe he was serious about giving this another go and I took him back and became codependent ... He also swore that he is NOT into her but last night I saw her name on his phone again, and he even has a cute nickname for her which I can't get out of my head.
Before I fall to pieces, what can I do?
I've prayed about it but when I pray he seems to waltz back into my head and I see all of his good sides. I sometimes think if God is trying to teach me a lesson as this is the hardest thing I've ever had to go through...