Might be a silly question but here's the thing I'm not one to discuss my personal battles or matters with people at all. Close friends, relatives hardly even my wife.
I've been really trying to open up more even my boss told me the other day that he likes that I'm opening up a little more concerning work related matters.
Last night I tried doing something I never do and that's actually have heart felt conversation with my father and his wife. My dad left us when we were kids now I've always stayed in contact and have always loved him but I feel some level anger towards him and I noticed it yesterday after talking with them. Trying to share personal things with anyone is sooooo hard for me Idk why but when you seem disinterested its that much harder and my dad is always so disinterested it seems or Idk.
And it reminded me why I'm not an open book. But when I'm not open people think I'm being secretive, or stuck up or too prideful when I just rather deal with it on my own and not worry anyone. Thing is I love being there for my family and friends but I know everyone's not like me lol.
Then there are some individuals who are always so ready and willing to listen and give their input if needed but I'm so afraid I don't know who to trust.
So I don't want to worry people even my friends but I also don't like holding stuff in.
I'm always judging myself when discussing things even like I'm very self conscious. Even as I type this. Lol.
I've been really trying to open up more even my boss told me the other day that he likes that I'm opening up a little more concerning work related matters.
Last night I tried doing something I never do and that's actually have heart felt conversation with my father and his wife. My dad left us when we were kids now I've always stayed in contact and have always loved him but I feel some level anger towards him and I noticed it yesterday after talking with them. Trying to share personal things with anyone is sooooo hard for me Idk why but when you seem disinterested its that much harder and my dad is always so disinterested it seems or Idk.
And it reminded me why I'm not an open book. But when I'm not open people think I'm being secretive, or stuck up or too prideful when I just rather deal with it on my own and not worry anyone. Thing is I love being there for my family and friends but I know everyone's not like me lol.
Then there are some individuals who are always so ready and willing to listen and give their input if needed but I'm so afraid I don't know who to trust.
So I don't want to worry people even my friends but I also don't like holding stuff in.
I'm always judging myself when discussing things even like I'm very self conscious. Even as I type this. Lol.