I met my boys today. It was the first time in 4 weeks. They live too far away. With their mom and her new boyfriend. They met at work. Thats the fruit of secular living of a secular marriage.
I dont feel sorry for myself. But the pain when they leave like today is ripping your heart out.
How would it be possible to endure without Jesus. When you abide in Christ. When you have been empowered with the mind of Christ, you can endure the emptiness. Your body may twist and be overloaded with heaviness.
And still, the core of your soul, the new creation in Christ will make it. If we abide in Jesus Christ. Even unto death if thats the plan. (not talking about suicide.)
But the bloody wound Can be so severe that at the moment you just dont manage. Especially you who dont have a church or other christian brothers and sisters. To still my own loss my heart goes out especially to each and everyone in that particular hard situation.
I know we are not alone. And even if we were, Jesus have a special care for the low and the lonely. He really do. I pray that we wrestle down the flesh and turn to him.
He has a plan for everyone.
When I read Proverbs it really nailed me to the ground. Unfit thoughts and feelings against God was rising in my mind. Of course. The enemy is fast and furious to take hold of the anxiety and try to get you to blaspheme the Holy Lord.
Praise God for Job.
I thought I could turn my wife to Jesus when times were rough. I didnt count on the adversaries power if you dont completely turn yourself to Jesus.
When I did this year (though I always have been reading my bible) I was saved. But it was too late for the family.
She already hade plan B in store. They had been doin it for the last two years. I felt something was wrong but I didnt want to believe. So when they hit for action it was fast over and impossible to do anything.
For men to have a chance to keep the kids it takes a lot. The secular institutions even ask the kids privately where THEY want to be.
And many kids tend to want to be with their mother. If the material things seems more abundant at that other new home, that to deceives them.
And so you find yourself. Naively betting all you had on one card...as in "til death do us apart", in a total vacuum.
Surrounded by thoughts like..."they probably sit on his (their stepdaddy) lap with a smile playong with one of His gifts" or "now they are driving to have a picknick" and on and on.
They slowly begin to lean on him instead. Their whole bodylanguage actually change. And fast. They adapt because they are kids. They want to survive.
100 years ago this wasnt possible. In this country today..the laws are made for the adulterers.
You just dont stand a chance. Thats a fact. Sadly.
It hurts you and kick you to the ground.
I even went as far as to really think about..isnt it my responsibility to just terminate the intruder. He that pressed on into a hardworking family with his money and a smile and promises of a new life.
But that too is an impossible way. If for nothing else its bad for the kids to have such a father. Especially if one proclaims to be a christian.
The times and laws are just not justice.
The revenge is mine sayeth the Lord.
Abide in him. Even when there seems to be no way out in a corrupted liberal society...he will provide a way and clear answers to your wonders and confusion.
If we abide in Christ we wont be prey to all the emotional outbursts that are manifesting more and more around us.
You reap what you sow. But if thats the case in Christ..Paul would have been put to death emediatly and we wouldnt have 1 Kor 13 and none of the other Pauline epistles.
Lets pray for each other. That we dont overwhelm ourselves with pain. But instead everytime we feel the pain building up..look another way..try to ignore it.
But of course one has to let the tears flow.
I think about David now. He mourned for his son for a time. Then God gave him strenght to wash himself off from it.
But it is important to mourn. Thats the way of keeping your heart at the right place.
I dont feel sorry for myself. But the pain when they leave like today is ripping your heart out.
How would it be possible to endure without Jesus. When you abide in Christ. When you have been empowered with the mind of Christ, you can endure the emptiness. Your body may twist and be overloaded with heaviness.
And still, the core of your soul, the new creation in Christ will make it. If we abide in Jesus Christ. Even unto death if thats the plan. (not talking about suicide.)
But the bloody wound Can be so severe that at the moment you just dont manage. Especially you who dont have a church or other christian brothers and sisters. To still my own loss my heart goes out especially to each and everyone in that particular hard situation.
I know we are not alone. And even if we were, Jesus have a special care for the low and the lonely. He really do. I pray that we wrestle down the flesh and turn to him.
He has a plan for everyone.
When I read Proverbs it really nailed me to the ground. Unfit thoughts and feelings against God was rising in my mind. Of course. The enemy is fast and furious to take hold of the anxiety and try to get you to blaspheme the Holy Lord.
Praise God for Job.
I thought I could turn my wife to Jesus when times were rough. I didnt count on the adversaries power if you dont completely turn yourself to Jesus.
When I did this year (though I always have been reading my bible) I was saved. But it was too late for the family.
She already hade plan B in store. They had been doin it for the last two years. I felt something was wrong but I didnt want to believe. So when they hit for action it was fast over and impossible to do anything.
For men to have a chance to keep the kids it takes a lot. The secular institutions even ask the kids privately where THEY want to be.
And many kids tend to want to be with their mother. If the material things seems more abundant at that other new home, that to deceives them.
And so you find yourself. Naively betting all you had on one card...as in "til death do us apart", in a total vacuum.
Surrounded by thoughts like..."they probably sit on his (their stepdaddy) lap with a smile playong with one of His gifts" or "now they are driving to have a picknick" and on and on.
They slowly begin to lean on him instead. Their whole bodylanguage actually change. And fast. They adapt because they are kids. They want to survive.
100 years ago this wasnt possible. In this country today..the laws are made for the adulterers.
You just dont stand a chance. Thats a fact. Sadly.
It hurts you and kick you to the ground.
I even went as far as to really think about..isnt it my responsibility to just terminate the intruder. He that pressed on into a hardworking family with his money and a smile and promises of a new life.
But that too is an impossible way. If for nothing else its bad for the kids to have such a father. Especially if one proclaims to be a christian.
The times and laws are just not justice.
The revenge is mine sayeth the Lord.
Abide in him. Even when there seems to be no way out in a corrupted liberal society...he will provide a way and clear answers to your wonders and confusion.
If we abide in Christ we wont be prey to all the emotional outbursts that are manifesting more and more around us.
You reap what you sow. But if thats the case in Christ..Paul would have been put to death emediatly and we wouldnt have 1 Kor 13 and none of the other Pauline epistles.
Lets pray for each other. That we dont overwhelm ourselves with pain. But instead everytime we feel the pain building up..look another way..try to ignore it.
But of course one has to let the tears flow.
I think about David now. He mourned for his son for a time. Then God gave him strenght to wash himself off from it.
But it is important to mourn. Thats the way of keeping your heart at the right place.
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Pain and loss in the light of Jesus is making us see the little things. How the smallest gesture can change a life. Hugs to you all over the air.