What you need is a professional counselor or psychologist to help you work through your shyness, so that you can then go live your life.
We all need people at times, and there's nothing wrong with that, but what you are asking for is someone to basically be on call, and to always be giving. You are not going to find someone like that simply by asking someone to be all of that for you. Such a commitment forms over time, through a strong, tested friendship between two people who have earned one anothers trust.
The issues you're facing may take years to overcome, and if that's the case, then that's a HUGE commitment to ask of a total stranger. Not to mention you would then be taking advice from someone that you have No Idea if they are a person of good character and healthy spiritual, mental and emotional guidance.
This is why a professional would suit you best. They are trained to understand your issues, to help you find the root cause and to know the directions and steps needed to point you in the right direction. Not to mention they often have other kinds of resources available, or can direct you where to find them. And often times have the same, or other, personal experiences which caused them to seek professional help at one point. Chances are whatever random person that may offer to help won't have all of that, if they are even trustworthy. Nor is it likely they will stick around for years.
You are asking a lot of someone and taking a big risk in trusting a stranger in this manner.
I have felt your pain and it is alot easier to say go to the professionals then to do it. I have gone down the road of proffesional help and it worked in someways and someways not. I have turned to alchohol in some circumstances and that doesn't ever help in the long run. I have always been a emotional eater as well which is pretty much the same as alchohol no long term helpfulness. I have told you these things to get to this sermons have been the answer for me. In the last 4 months I have everyday switched youtube on found a sermon that was tugging on my heart to listen to. My family and friends don't have the same belief system I do in Christianity. It is not a good or bad thing just different. It becomes hard to share and express things because of it which then in return can feel very lonely at times. What I found was to find a pastor that you really like to hear. It is soothing to find someone that brings calmness to you when you hear their voice. Once you do that then just listen. You will be surprised on how helpful it can be. You will have spiritual revelations that you never thought there were. Life will start to look brighter. You will find things that you need to be truthful about to yourself to work on. Once all these things start to happen confidence will come and it will become easier to live your life with a smile. It won't be easy but you have continue the process. I hope this helps
