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I'm looking for some guidance maybe some kind words. About a month ago my husband and I separated, we've been married for going on 2 years and together for over 8. He decided that despite loving me, he was finding it hard to continue committing himself. He thinks that I deserve to have a better life than what he can commit too and what he thinks he could give me. We both were faithful. We did fight a bit, it also seemed like a lot of things were stacked up against us couldn't find Steady work, no money, living with his parents, just a lot of pressure. But at no point did I ever want us to give up. Before we got married, divorce was never an option. But all that changed! For me some days I feel like I've lost my whole future. Seems like the end of the world, even though I know that's not true. I'm 26 and he is 31. And we've been together since I was 18. I knew when we got together we totally different people kind of Polar Opposites but we could always find something we liked together.
Just the other day he ended up coming by and giving me some things I had unknowingly left. And it was nice to see him but nowhere near as emotional as it was previous times that I had seen him. I do know that I love him very much. But somehow I can't help but think maybe this was a long time coming. A lot of our point of veiws are very different. When we met he was not a Christian but before we got married he accepted Jesus in his heart.
I've always wanted someone that was loving and comforting a little spontaneous and had a goal in life. And in the beginning he was But as time went on he didn't know what he wanted out of life he seemed to fall in and out of his alcoholism and drug use. For a while I was oblivious to his using promised you would stop and then I would catch him again. And for me that was a deal-breaker but I love them and threatened I would leave and he would quit for awhile then he would always go back to it. I've never done any kind of drugs I've never even smoked a cigarette it's just not someone I've ever wanted to be. My goal in life was always to find someone to be in love and have a family and he said that was his goal as well but never acted on it. A journal and I pray even though it's still hard something is telling me that this is what's for the best.
We still want to have a friendship out of this because that's how we started was as friends. But somehow cards making it just a little easier everyday and I know but it's some point the right man will be introduced into my life.
Just the other day he ended up coming by and giving me some things I had unknowingly left. And it was nice to see him but nowhere near as emotional as it was previous times that I had seen him. I do know that I love him very much. But somehow I can't help but think maybe this was a long time coming. A lot of our point of veiws are very different. When we met he was not a Christian but before we got married he accepted Jesus in his heart.
I've always wanted someone that was loving and comforting a little spontaneous and had a goal in life. And in the beginning he was But as time went on he didn't know what he wanted out of life he seemed to fall in and out of his alcoholism and drug use. For a while I was oblivious to his using promised you would stop and then I would catch him again. And for me that was a deal-breaker but I love them and threatened I would leave and he would quit for awhile then he would always go back to it. I've never done any kind of drugs I've never even smoked a cigarette it's just not someone I've ever wanted to be. My goal in life was always to find someone to be in love and have a family and he said that was his goal as well but never acted on it. A journal and I pray even though it's still hard something is telling me that this is what's for the best.
We still want to have a friendship out of this because that's how we started was as friends. But somehow cards making it just a little easier everyday and I know but it's some point the right man will be introduced into my life.
