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Hello. I am new here. I needed a place to vent and I seek some Christian advice on how to deal with things. I have been married for 21years. My husband was not a Christian when we married. He accepted Christ a year or so after we married. I was saved at 6yrs old and grew up in church. Our marriage had been a struggle. I'm the past 20 years, I have dealt with his drinking, lying, selfishness, lack of interest in me,excessive spending, and most recently porn! Things are good for a while , then something else comes up. We have 2 children (girls11&7). He is not physically abusive to me or the kids but he doesn't seem to have an interest in being a family. He does his own thing...goes to work, comes home and disappears I the basement. He shows his face a little to say goodnight to the girls...But that's all. Even if he takes a day off, he will go off on his own instead of having family time. I have been hurt and disappointed so many times that it is almost easier when he is away. If we didn't have kids we probably wouldn't be married..we both agree on that. He will not go to counseling. How do I deal with this? How much loneliness can one woman take? What would you do?