My neck has been such a problem this past few months. It started getting really bad the week I went to my sisters feb 13th. It is getting so bad I can not move my head with out having nerve pain and it snapping and pooping real loud. I have an MRI scheduled for march 5th I do not have a good feeling about this I am most likely heading to the surgery department sooner then I would like to. It is so unstable that no Matter what i try I can not keep it in place. I have tried bed rest I have tried light exercise. I have tried heat Ice massage muscle relaxers etc.... It is bothering me so much so bad I have not even been able to touch my school work.
I am so far behind now I have no choice but to with draw from the semester or risk destroying my GPA i have worked my butt off for. I am so angry at myself for letting the pain get the best of me and side tracking me from school. I know that I can no longer ignore what my neck is telling me either though and I feel that I will have no choice but to have my surgery sooner then later. I was trying very hard to avoid surgery all together but I can not i am losing strength and feeling my neck arms and shoulders.. I am so disappointed that I have to stop my school work as I have been very hard at pushing myself to do school and do well. Now I have to be okay with the fact that I need to take care of my health and put my school on hold once again. This is very bothersome to me because I am very scared that I will not push myself to get school done once I have surgery and heal.. I just ask you all to please pray for me to be okay with taking time for my health. I know I need to but convincing myself that it is okay to take time for my health is a different story. I guess that might sound real stupid to most people. However I have already lost most of my adult life to health and other issues I don't want to lose anymore if that makes sense. It seems like everytime I try to better myself and try to make myself happy something messes it up and I have to stop or change things up and I never feel like I get any closer. I am surely not getting any younger to be having time to screw around with things lol. I just hate the feeling of taking two steps forward and nine hundred steps backwords.. Sigh I am so depressed right now..
I am so far behind now I have no choice but to with draw from the semester or risk destroying my GPA i have worked my butt off for. I am so angry at myself for letting the pain get the best of me and side tracking me from school. I know that I can no longer ignore what my neck is telling me either though and I feel that I will have no choice but to have my surgery sooner then later. I was trying very hard to avoid surgery all together but I can not i am losing strength and feeling my neck arms and shoulders.. I am so disappointed that I have to stop my school work as I have been very hard at pushing myself to do school and do well. Now I have to be okay with the fact that I need to take care of my health and put my school on hold once again. This is very bothersome to me because I am very scared that I will not push myself to get school done once I have surgery and heal.. I just ask you all to please pray for me to be okay with taking time for my health. I know I need to but convincing myself that it is okay to take time for my health is a different story. I guess that might sound real stupid to most people. However I have already lost most of my adult life to health and other issues I don't want to lose anymore if that makes sense. It seems like everytime I try to better myself and try to make myself happy something messes it up and I have to stop or change things up and I never feel like I get any closer. I am surely not getting any younger to be having time to screw around with things lol. I just hate the feeling of taking two steps forward and nine hundred steps backwords.. Sigh I am so depressed right now..