My wife and I have separated. She's asking for a divorce and I don't believe in it but I can't blame her either. I was an alcoholic up until a little over a month ago. I had a terrible night with alcohol one evening and blacked out. In my drunken state I was physically abusive to my wife. When I finally awoke the next morning I had very little recollection of what I had done but she told me what happened and said she was leaving me. We've had problems in the past but nothing this serious. At the time I didn't realize I had a problem with alcohol. I wasn't a follower of Jesus then either. I have since been saved and have quit drinking. I'm trying to change my life around for the better but losing my wife and family is tearing my life apart. I've prayed constantly about what to do and I feel so lost and broken. I don't ever want to be that person again. I don't know where to go from here. I'm completely ashamed of what I did and it sickens me when I think of how I hurt the love of my life. She has moved into a place of her own with our daughter now and is not willing to try and work on things. I can't blame her at all but I can't help feeling that it's truly wrong in my heart to just give up on our marriage. This was difficult for me to confess publicly but I feel if I hide this pain inside me, it will cause more damage than good.