I've been married for 22 years to a great woman and terrific mother.
I am a Christian who loves Jesus and she is a Christian who knows Jesus.
I have always known she wasn't as committed to the faith like me, However; she never opposed me from going to church. She hasn't been to church in years and I'm to the point where I'm tired of going solo.
She had tried going during the beginning of our marriage but it has faded 10 plus years ago.
We are good friends and get along fine. We have 3 kids; one graduated college, one in 10th grade and last in 6th.
I have left before "2 years ago" and came back 6 mos. later without the kids knowing that I had left because of the guilt.
I feel isolated in my faith for the past year and I'm moving away from God and not going to church as often.
No counseling because she does not believe in counseling and I have been a few times but nothing came of it.
So, I'm trying to hang in the marriage but I think it's uselss and eventually when the youngest graduates high school we have talked about seperating.
So, should I be selfish and save my faith or continue to hang in there because it's the Christianly thing to do.