I lost the battle...

Last Friday (the 16) I lost custody of my son to his father. This would not be so bad but his father lives in another state. I am a recovering alcoholic and was arrested for a DUI in which my child was with me. I was sober for 7 months prior to this and I am now 14 months sober. I have done everythin and more to show the courts I have taken what I did seriously.

You see my son has Aspberger's (like autism but high functioning) I have raised him from day one, even after his father left to move back to Texas. He has overcome a lot, but I fear a regression.His father was never even interested in acknowledging his mental disability. But now my child (only) will be in Texas and I will hardley be able to see him.

A week before the trial God spoke to her and said" it is done, now praise me for it." So that is what I have done.But still I lost...I don't understand. I know now this is a test and I will remain faithful. But I hurt and I fear my son won't miss me at all. Selfish maybe but he is all I have in this world. He is my gem.

I desperatly need prayer over this and for me to get close to God and stop wavering.

I feel like I am the only person going though this in the whole world. Are there others out there? I could really use the support.

My son's father even told the judge he thought I was an excellent mother except for this one isolated incident. HELP HELP!!

Faith is hard right now, as is continuing to breath in and out. I wish I could have God wrap his arms around me. I need his touch.

God bless,
S

Here is picture of my wonderful son.

ill pray for u, i just lost my wife suddenly 9 days ago so i need some prayer too god bless

I will pray for both of you. I pray that God will give you strength and guide your path. I pray for the restoration of your son. I pray for comfort to he who mourns.
In Jesus Name.

Hey people....im am so sorry to hear (or more like read) these things and I WILL be praying for all of yous...Gods plans are not our plans..and he will Bless just read his word and pray and the Holy Spirit will do the rest...

Mathew 11:6 Blessed is the man who does not fall away on account of me."

[Kaitlin]

Originally Posted by johnnyluv

ill pray for u, i just lost my wife suddenly 9 days ago so i need some prayer too god bless

I'm sorry for your loss . May God keep and hold you close to Him more now than ever. He feels your loss, you're not alone. I pray that you'll find comfort in His presense and in loving people surrounding you. Rest in your heavenly Father's love. Follow His lead in your steps to come. God bless you.

[AgeofKnowledge]

I can't even imagine how you must feel sister. Please surround yourself with loving Christians at an authentic Christian assembly and put everything before the Lord. God loves you very much and this is not over yet. Peace and God bless you.

[pickles]

My heart and prayers are with you. My sister is a recovered alchoholic, her son is a high funtioning asbergers as well.
She went through this several years ago, it took everything she had, even refinacing her home to fight for her son.
The only thing in her favor was the father had some issues of his own.
He has tried several times to gain custody, thankfully the judge said that if he contested again he would have to pay all her costs for court , lawers, ect.
You coud try again, but as you said change is difficult for your son.
I know the difficulties you have faced , I remember the testamonies, pain and hardship my sister went through.
My heart is with you in this, I cannot know what you are going through now. But I willl keep you and your son in my prayers as long as you need.
May the streangth, comfort, and Love of Jesus be with you in all of this.
In the Love of Jesus.
Hugs and God bless, pickles

My prayers also for both of you. Faith, this case may not be over. Commit to trusting God. He specializes in doing the impossible. Try to remain at rest as you actively place trust in Him. I pray the peace that passes understanding, to guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.

Thank u all so much for ur support. God has been giving me rest and peace. I am standing firm that my son will return home soon. Again thank you to each and everyone of u. Godd bless u and keep u. May his face shine upon you.

... prayed ...