Some Support Needed

[ryanthelion19]

Hi Im Ryan and really my whole life Ive been raised in a Christian Home and have had a great upbringing. My mum was brought up in a Christian home and my dad became a christian through a very hard childhood. The problem Ive been having since I can remember is that Ive always had homosexual tendencies, and from 16 till now ( me being 20 ) id been looking for a boyfriend. I have had numerous dates over the years, and everytime after anything happened I felt such guilt come over me.
I really have found it a struggle for most of my life. When I was younger even 12 I remember praying that God would change me because I felt different to everyone else. Tbh nothing ever happened to make me feel different. A few nights ago I prayed that God would give me a sign what to do, because I have been researching alot about what is best. Some people say its okay to be gay and christian , then others say you should ask for Gods help to go on the right path. The thing is I do wants kids. Anyways, after praying to God for a sign, I still dont think ive seen one yet although I honestly feel like almost a clear spirit within me and when I get any urges I decide that Im not going to do anything with them.
I told my parents when I was 15 that i thought I was gay and my mum was adamant that I wasnt and prayed that I would change and tbh i think back then i didnt want to change because id felt that way for so long it seemed embedded in me. I feel now i want to change but all my friends know that ive been living a gay lifestyle ( not a slutty one or with drugs or anything) , and i dont knw what to do .

Basically i just feel so confused about the whole thing but i feel in my heart that god wants me to enjoy a happier life than i have been . Id appreciate any prayers or words from anyone. Thank You

Ryan

Hi my friend, it is always easy to understand this situation by a way the Lord revealed it to me.

Now, people who live in sin are like slaves in chains. So, a slave gets wise that he can be free (now there are some slaves who don't desire to be free, and some think they are free though they are slaves.)

But someone gets the idea that they can be free. So this causes an uproar, because the slave master makes his money off the slaves, and keeps them ignorant of freedom, lest they should break free.

So Jesus comes and says, ''You are a slave.'' Most of the time people say, ''I am not a slave.'' But Jesus says, yes, you are. And then Jesus shows us our chains/sins. Then we beg, ''Lord, I am a slave, and I did not see it, please help me, take off these chains!!''

So he says, ''I have the keys to your shackles, and I will set you free. So, he right then and there, as soon as you ask, take off the chains and you are free.

But here is the issue. That old slave master and his slaves keep hounding you. Now my friend, this is that fight of faith. Jesus HAS set you free when you repented and called on him to save you. Indeed, but there is now a war we fight till Jesus returns to REMAIN FREE!!

Satan tries to seduce us with old feelings and emotions that are engraved into our wills, but Jesus is taking us from those old desires to new desires. And he will make us perfect. This is why it is a fight of faith. Don't you feel how violent it is.

Yes, Satan tries to seduce/tempt us to put back on the chains, even though we are free. That is why it was written, ''There is no condemnation to those that are in Christ that walk after the Spirit and not after the flesh.''

I could go on and on, but I will let the Lord minister to you now.

May Jesus bless you.

[Snackersmom]

Originally Posted by ryanthelion19

Anyways, after praying to God for a sign, I still dont think ive seen one yet although I honestly feel like almost a clear spirit within me and when I get any urges I decide that Im not going to do anything with them.

It sounds like God is answering your prayer, Ryan. We often have a tendency to expect His answers to come with a sign or some earth-shattering event, but usually it's simply a clear, beautiful, peaceful spirit, just like you described. Praise God! Keep resisting the urges when they come. It isn't a sin to be tempted, and God has promised that we won't be tempted beyond what we can bear. It will also help if you ask God to fill you with His Holy Spirit, The Comforter. Stay strong, Brother! Eyes on Jesus!

[Fencepost]

You will find joy and love when you make a stand for Jesus!

[shemaiah]

Hey dude, the best way I know of changing is that of rededicating (surrendering) your life to His will.
He loves you so much and never wants to see you in sin, every day that comes by continually surrender to His will and ask Him to make you more like Him. I'll be praying for you, God will not leave you!

[ryanthelion19]

thank you everyone. I do feel myself thinkin about god alot more the past week. Strangely I seem happier even though Im not doing much different. I think something I find hard is that of makin new friends. I dont think the people I used to hang out with are bad, but I know they dont bring out the best in me. Oddly someone who was my best friend has recently come out as gay. I dunno where to meet ppl to make fresh friends. Hmm...

Ryan :-)

[Brighthouse]

Without judging you in any way,let me show you 2 scriptures,and see what you think of them.(Romans 1:24-32)( 1 cor 6:9-20) being immoral,can mean men with men,or men having sex before marriage with women. verse 19-20 of 1 cor 6 is why, it is wrong.Grace from the Lord is given to us all,the reason for this,is to bring us closer to the Lord,not further away, which is what sin can do.

I would say to you,to find a good Bible based Church to meet others who struggle in many different sins,the point being,you have gifts from God others do not,and the Body of Christ needs your working part,even as you need there working parts to help you overcome in Christ as well. Please read 1 Cor 12 please pay attention to verses 12-31. You wanted a sign from God,I believe this is your sign. Jesus calls all of us,few are chosen, because few will pay the price it takes.You judge this for your selve.May the Lord richly bless you,and keep you in his protective hands!You know my prayers are with you bro!!

[Peepers]

Ryanthelion, you never said if you were a christian, are you? I'm not trying to be facetious but being raised in a godly household doesn't make you a christian. My daughter and I talked about that just the other day. I would urge you to not be too dependent on what your heart tells you as it is deceitfully wicked, but rather, search out the Word of God and like someone else mentioned, find a good church. We all have sin that we struggle with, and homosexual tendencies is no exception. Resist the temptation, meaning keep yourself out of situations where you're tempted. Don't dwell on your failure but continue to ask God to forgive you and move on. It will get easier.

[ryanthelion19]

no i definitely am a christian . Ive always been thankful to god for where I am and situations he places me in. This is just the struggle of my life it would seem :S. I have been doing well the past few days. By my heart i mean i feel god has spoken to me in a way. I havent ever heard actual words from him but i do see clearly when god has done something miraculous for me. Thank you for all your support, I really appreciate your prayers. If you would could you pray for my parents who are in Indonesia atm doin missionary work, and my brother who has gone to wales for a few days. Thanks you all so much.

[shekaniah]

I have prayed for your family and their mission trip. As for you...I asked God to surround you with new friends that will help you be strong in Jesus.
May the Holy Spirit confirm who you are in Jesus every morning and in your dreams. In Jesus Name Amen

[Puddles]

Dude, I just wanna tell you that you are awesome...and God loves you very much.

[ryanthelion19]

Thank you My parents got back okay and actually were tellin me n my bros they were takin part in a meeting where transvestites were invited to go in indonesia and they had a dvd back which i watched . although im obviously not a transvestite it kinda was relle amazing to watch. My mum said it changed her life and she felt bad for reacting in ways to us in some things and even though she didnt say it i knew she meant when i told her i was gay. Anyways things are looking up . I passed a few horrible science exams i have for my nursing course too so im a happy person atm thank the lord!!

[leelee]

Pray that God will put you on the right path yes, but the right path for you. Not what other people think is the right one. If you ask God will help you see where and who you should be. xx

[ryanthelion19]

been struggling again the past few weeks. i wish it was easier but i know i need to continue workin with gods help

[Muirnin]

As I read your story, I was reminded of a book I began reading called The Bondage Breaker by Neil Anderson. There is a twelve step process that may help you. One of the things I learned from the book was that if we feel tempted, it's important to deal with it and then move on to what God has planned for us, or our ministry. God has big plans for our lives and I pray that you will see that in today's world we need people just like you to overcome this very issue and be able to tell their story to others and support them through it. I pray that God will reveal the very ministry he has set aside for you. Is there a Campus Christian Group that you can get involved with? You may find it helpful to be focused on doing the work of God and also meeting some new people that share your faith in Christ. God Bless you and strengthen you in your walk brother. We need more people just like you to put up the good fight and stand up against temptation.

[TheAristocat]

Originally Posted by ryanthelion19

Hi Im Ryan and really my whole life Ive been raised in a Christian Home and have had a great upbringing. My mum was brought up in a Christian home and my dad became a christian through a very hard childhood. The problem Ive been having since I can remember is that Ive always had homosexual tendencies, and from 16 till now ( me being 20 ) id been looking for a boyfriend. I have had numerous dates over the years, and everytime after anything happened I felt such guilt come over me.
I really have found it a struggle for most of my life. When I was younger even 12 I remember praying that God would change me because I felt different to everyone else. Tbh nothing ever happened to make me feel different. A few nights ago I prayed that God would give me a sign what to do, because I have been researching alot about what is best. Some people say its okay to be gay and christian , then others say you should ask for Gods help to go on the right path. The thing is I do wants kids. Anyways, after praying to God for a sign, I still dont think ive seen one yet although I honestly feel like almost a clear spirit within me and when I get any urges I decide that Im not going to do anything with them.
I told my parents when I was 15 that i thought I was gay and my mum was adamant that I wasnt and prayed that I would change and tbh i think back then i didnt want to change because id felt that way for so long it seemed embedded in me. I feel now i want to change but all my friends know that ive been living a gay lifestyle ( not a slutty one or with drugs or anything) , and i dont knw what to do .

Basically i just feel so confused about the whole thing but i feel in my heart that god wants me to enjoy a happier life than i have been . Id appreciate any prayers or words from anyone. Thank You

Ryan

Hey, Ryan. I've often been confused by the homosexual frame of mind, so you have to forgive me if I ask a personal question. How would you feel being in a serious relationship with a woman who loved you as more than a friend? Would it be encouraging? Would it be fulfilling? What would the difference be between a heterosexual and a homosexual relationship for you? You could send me the answer through PM if you would like. I've just been trying to understand this, and maybe it'd help us both out. I don't know.

I've always been of the opinion that Jesus should be our first love, and if we see Jesus (i.e. God) in the other person then it is okay to love them too. Otherwise it is like flirting with someone who is not our spouse. Just remember, as part of the Church, you are already married to Jesus. I know the English Bible uses the term "bride", but this is a fallacy. According to the Jewish wedding a bride and groom would become married and then the husband would leave his new wife to prepare a place for her. All the while the wife would be alone, but then the husband would return and take her with him. I don't mean to say you'll be alone your whole life, but I do mean to say that you are married to God and should seek his will as should I. It will be a struggle, I'm sure. Fight the good fight. God will still love you if your heart is in the right place even if you continue to fall from time to time.