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6:00 pm they called and said we got it not only did we get it but 1st off it was the nicest of them 2nd it had a handicapped bathroom for my dad and now hear this I had no idea where this was located well this is how great our God is the complex turned out to be right across the street from carries job 3 miles from her moms and 3 miles from Calvary chapel the same church my aunt goes to in California god had it all planned out well we moved up here the first day I got here I had to stay at a hotel till we could move into the apartment the next day so during that day I went to the mall with Carrie and my little boy and remember what I said about having a little girl well we were in a store and Carrie starts smiling and goes to say something and stops well I ask her what she keeps smiling and I ask again and she says maybe we will have a little girl next (remember what I said early in my story when my aunt had said that she never said God told her she just said maybe she felt that inside that we would have a little girl and that was 2 months before I ever moved to Tennessee and here out of carries mouth is what was told to me 2 months before ) ya that’s our God now for the time of my story till now I loved her and my son so much with and unconditional love even sometimes she would be sweet and times she would be so mean it did not matter cause of the love God gave me would holding me firm I will tell you it has now been three and a half months since she and my son were gone there have been a lot of tears and lonely nights when I thought God did not seem to be there he was holding me when ever things got bad he would always give me someone or something that would build me up. So after that I moved in and she was kind of up and down but that first Friday she took me out at the end of that day when she dropped me off she gave me a big kiss and remember that thought that had been in my head that I would never kiss her again like that you see that was the enemy saying that) she was still wearing the ring I gave her but still not wanting to work and that hurt she was only wearing the ring as a fashion statement I believe she loved me inside but love herself now and wanted only what she wanted but it’s ok my god is an awesome god but it still hurt I still had tears but I am still standing we don’t have a car and I have not found a job but I will say I am in the word of God day and night learning to trust him some days I get to see her and my son when God lets me see her and my son even if it is for only a minute I cherish it in my heart and hold on too it always it is hard but you can never give up I will not Give up how can you Give up on a God that created me and you and all that is in heaven and earth but she has been there to let me use her car well I found out she has a boyfriend. But my God is bigger my hope is in him I love her with God’s love and that is unconditional love. I love my son and if I love my son the best thing I could give him is growing up with his mommy and daddy in a home that loves god I love her so much I could turn and find another girl but in my heart it would not be right I will stand in my faith in God for my family. There are too many unmarried couples with babies that just give up, look Get right with God start believing in him turn your eyes off the situation get married and put God first families are being torn apart because of sin they are not married they love everything but themselves and now these babies are growing up in drugs and parties and they are being killed or molested everything. If you love your children talk to your spouse believe God get your life right with him and watch your life change and the joy that will come in to your heart oh and but in all that god has done I can’t imagine he did all this to leave me without a divided family no job no car I am still standing in faith that god will turn it around and not only will he restore my family so my son will grow up with his mother and father in a godly home I am praying for her salvation and that god will fill her with the love he filled me with I love her unconditionally now no matter what has been done I will open my arms and hold her and tell her I love her with tears in my eye. she still will say she loves me but it does not look good in the natural but that is when God steps in when it looks like it’s over, it’s never over till God says its over( now king David had to fight the philistines and he prayed to god to help him they were outnumbered and everything when it was all over god came in and wiped out the enemies with a flood and king David named that place bal prism it means the God of breakthroughs) he will give me a break through like a flood. so please pray for me Carrie and my son for my family I have been believing all this from the time she left me till now and I am still standing has been 4 months but in that time I have been saved delivered and set free and filled with god’s love and unconditional love that he has for me and now I have for her and my son. Please pray for my family I pray god will give the greatest miracle and that would be her salvation and our family restored I can’t believe that in all that he has done it would end like that , but it won’t our God is a faithful and loving full of grace and mercy. On Wednesday I was given a verse Habakkuk 2:33 I had a second vision that was so real again it was like the first one but this time she was standing in front of me crying I said what’s wrong and I woke up heart pounding just like the first one the verse that was given to me was concerning a vision. It said for the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry wait for it because it will surely come it will not tarry. when that was given to me I asked god if this is from you will give me someone who will tell me what the verse means 4 days later on Sunday right after church I was asked to sit down with the pastor and we talked and then it got brought up and he told me what it meant it was the lord bring back his people the vision was telling meant he was bringing her back if you have not accepted Jesus Christ as your lord and savior and maybe you need help you need a miracle ask him in your heart and see the love I am talking about. One day I was reading my bible and I caught the end of a short story on seven hundred club. The scene was in a dinner a man came in and sat down on a bar stool there was a waitress and there was a long boy maybe 12 years old sitting to the left of them man there was another man sitting in a booth behind him a cook in the grill area the man did not have much money he asked the waitress how much a grilled cheese sandwhich cost she said 2.00 he looked at his money and saw that he would not have enough so he asked how much a muffin cost she said 1 dollar he looked at her and said I will have one muffin she said no grill cheese he said not today so she gave him his muffin the man looked at the little boy and smiled the guy in the booth he food was ready so the waitress took it to him the man was mad said it was burnt started to yell at her she said I will get another one he yelled back and said I am not paying for it she picked up his plate shaking and took it back when the waitress turned around she so the man on the stool walking out the door and saw a dollar on the counter she looked at the boy and they both started smiling as she was the man crossed the street she could only smile. The man only had 2 dollars. In all that had happen she was upset until she thought about that man and smiled you see God is always there even in the smallest ways to lift us up. God get your life right with him and watch your life change and the joy that will come in to your heart oh and but in all that god has done I can’t imagine he did all this to leave me without a divided family no job no car I am still standing in faith that god will turn it around and not only will he restore my family so my son will grow up with his mother and father in a godly home I am praying for her salvation and that god will fill her with the love he filled me with I love her unconditionally now no matter what has been done I will open my arms and hold her and tell her I love her with tears in my eye. she still will say she loves me sometimes but it does not look good in the natural but that is when God steps in when it looks like it’s over, it’s never over till God says its over.