I can't feel God....

[Geo_Rivero]

I am just in a low point in life where I feel so alone, the lowest ever in my life I should add. I am a soldier and have been for going on 9 years and am used to loneliness it comes with this life. But God had always been my friend through death and the horrors of war. But today I had a conversation about capital punishment and the simple fact that I hesitated in saying that I think it is not ok to murder and murderer. I believe is a sign of my heart and the distance from him I am feeling. I read his word and can only focus on things that we cant explain. Things I have always been confident in. I have picked up cursing as of late and I blame it on my surroundings. I have such a hard time being nice. And I understand the fruits of the spirit and how my distance with God can cause my hard heart. So I guess I am writing this so that I dont feel like im holding all my emotion inside. Well I there is so much more I am feeling but it I continue I will be here all night.

 

[Gabrielle]

Aww I wish I knew what to tell you or had words of encouragement but I will pray for you. Sometimes I've felt distant from God but I found that it was because I wasn't spending enough time reading my Bible or just talking and listening to Him. I'm not sure if this is the case with you. It is important especially when you have ungodly surroundings.

 

[imoss]

first let me thank you for your service to your country and its benefits to me in the freedom of my Country. I just wanted to give you encouragement and let you know that i see you acknowledge that you are aware you are outside of Gods will when you swear, the only way back is to seek him first. I dont believe he has left you, I just think that when we grieve the Holy Spirit (each time it gets a little easier) it puts us outside of his will and draws us away from him. Onward Christian Soldier say a little prayer everytime there is blasphemy around you. You are in a harsh but necessary environment & you are placed there for Gods good purpose. Oh how many seeds can be planted! Anyway I just wanted to offer you encouragement in your walk with the Lord and in being a soldier working hard in a trying environment , seeing things and having to do things that i cant even imagine so i can sit here and do exactly what I want when I want because of you and your comrads. I am free and I pray for to feel Gods arms around you holding you like the precious son that you are. God Bless you & thank you again.

 

[whiteknite]

I am just in a low point in life where I feel so alone, the lowest ever in my life I should add. I am a soldier and have been for going on 9 years and am used to loneliness it comes with this life. But God had always been my friend through death and the horrors of war. But today I had a conversation about capital punishment and the simple fact that I hesitated in saying that I think it is not ok to murder and murderer. I believe is a sign of my heart and the distance from him I am feeling. I read his word and can only focus on things that we cant explain. Things I have always been confident in. I have picked up cursing as of late and I blame it on my surroundings. I have such a hard time being nice. And I understand the fruits of the spirit and how my distance with God can cause my hard heart. So I guess I am writing this so that I dont feel like im holding all my emotion inside. Well I there is so much more I am feeling but it I continue I will be here all night.

I disagree with you, Geo. I think you hesitated in saying you think murder is wrong is because of your relationship with the Lord. Even if the one being murdered is a murderer himself. I'm sure you, like me, believe that each one of us on this earth is loved very much by God and that taking the life of any of his children hurts God very very much. That is how I feel and it sounds to me like you feel pretty much the same way.

Of course, I believe there is a difference between murder and capital punishment. Capital punishment happens after a person is convicted of a capital crime in a court of law with due process. Murder is not. I honestly believe you are not distancing yourself from God. In fact, after reading this post I think you are closer to God than you may realize.

God Bless you

 

[chelsers]

I am just in a low point in life where I feel so alone, the lowest ever in my life I should add. I am a soldier and have been for going on 9 years and am used to loneliness it comes with this life. But God had always been my friend through death and the horrors of war. But today I had a conversation about capital punishment and the simple fact that I hesitated in saying that I think it is not ok to murder and murderer. I believe is a sign of my heart and the distance from him I am feeling. I read his word and can only focus on things that we cant explain. Things I have always been confident in. I have picked up cursing as of late and I blame it on my surroundings. I have such a hard time being nice. And I understand the fruits of the spirit and how my distance with God can cause my hard heart. So I guess I am writing this so that I dont feel like im holding all my emotion inside. Well I there is so much more I am feeling but it I continue I will be here all night.

Sometimes you just need to talk about what's going on and get it out of your system. I'm not surprised considering what you've been through. Keep praying, and keep talking as much as you need to. I firmly believe you'll come out closer to God.

 

[Kakashi]

Let me say something real quick about one thing: by definition murder means to " kill out side of the law." The commandment is to not "kill outside of the law or " murder"

Capitial punishment i believe is ok. Why? It it's the law, then it's the law. the bible says that the government was set in place by God to carry out his justice, capital punishment being one. If the law we have here is ' you do a drive by and kill people, then you get the death penalty' thenthat's how it works. That's not murdering a murderer, that's the consequences of his actions.( If I'm understanding you correctly that is, please correct me if this is what you weren't saying) So, i agree with whiteknite, that's not you being distant from God.

Second, the whoel cursing thing...it's easy for us to blame our surroundings, and shoot I know how that is sometimes. I catch myself saying things in my head that I have to correct. 2nd Corinthians 10:5 says that we take captive every thought in accordance to being like Christ (I'm paraphrasing here). the bible says that out of the mouth comes the wellspring of the heart. it reflects your heart to an extent. I know you can take captive every though in your mind so your speech can be like the way you know it needs to be, full of salt( full of taste) and love according to how Christ talked.

Finally...thank you for serving as a soldier and protecting this country we hold dear, really....the fact that you;re letting all ofthis out and grieve over these things shows that you can feel God. if you couldn't then thesethings wouldn't greive you at all! does that make sense. i hope ya cometo a peace about these things brotha!

 

[Kakashi]

While I'm on the subject, go watch the Abide in Christ' thing on the teaching from the phillippines' section of the forums. john ch 15 ' Abide in me" strong words. i suggest ya check it out

 

[loveschild]

Geo thank you for protecting us. We all go thr dry times. As long as you still believe in God you will get thr this. Sometimes it's just a test to see if you will still love God. Just keep telling yourself God loves me and I love God. It's our job to keep our spirit up. We all will go thr many times when we have to keep our spirit up. Your the light of God so stop cussing and help the people around you see God Ok. When you are weak God makes you strong. You can talk to me any time. God bless you and remember we don't go by how we feel we go by we know God is God and he will help us always. Love