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So, last night it happened again. I was making our dinner and he was going to heat up my burger and I asked him not to and he got mad at me because of it. I cried and told him I am allowed to make my own decisions and have my own opinions. He just huffed and walked away...This happens all the time. He gets frustrated at something, or even me, and then makes me feel so emotionally low that all I can do is cry.
Yes, he tells me he loves me and that I am beautiful and that he's glad he married me. But with one frustrated outburst, it erases all the nice words.
His Dad died last year in an car accident, which really sent him over the edge and this past October he had an emotional affair with a woman at his work. We lived in CO at the time and I kicked him out of the house when I found out (found a note in his pocket while doing laundry) and sent him back to NJ where he is from.
We met online 2 years ago and got married way too quickly. He has frontal lobe damage to his brain which affects his "consequence" zone and I never realized how bad it could be. He doesn't know he hurts others until after he's done it. Then he is truly sorry, but it's soo hard to live with this day in and day out.
I myself have a few medical disabilities that keep me from working and doing much. So, I feel really STUCK. I love this man with my whole heart, but am so tired of feeling emotionally beaten up. I have nowhere to go.
I moved to NJ this past January to patch things up with him and he promised he'd get into counseling. We both know that only God and counseling can help him. Yet, its 6 months later and he hasn't gone yet. Yes, we have been VERY poor and had no money to go and he can't drive because of his brain damage, but isn't that just excuses?
I know that fighting is part of every marriage and so of course is forgiveness. But I just can't tell if this is worse than every day married life for others???
Because I am disabled, there is no one out there that I can go to that can take care of me or help me if I needed to leave. So, I remain here. Confused, exhausted, in pain and stuck. I don't really have anyone to talk to either.
Please, can anyone help me sort this out???
Yes, he tells me he loves me and that I am beautiful and that he's glad he married me. But with one frustrated outburst, it erases all the nice words.
His Dad died last year in an car accident, which really sent him over the edge and this past October he had an emotional affair with a woman at his work. We lived in CO at the time and I kicked him out of the house when I found out (found a note in his pocket while doing laundry) and sent him back to NJ where he is from.
We met online 2 years ago and got married way too quickly. He has frontal lobe damage to his brain which affects his "consequence" zone and I never realized how bad it could be. He doesn't know he hurts others until after he's done it. Then he is truly sorry, but it's soo hard to live with this day in and day out.
I myself have a few medical disabilities that keep me from working and doing much. So, I feel really STUCK. I love this man with my whole heart, but am so tired of feeling emotionally beaten up. I have nowhere to go.
I moved to NJ this past January to patch things up with him and he promised he'd get into counseling. We both know that only God and counseling can help him. Yet, its 6 months later and he hasn't gone yet. Yes, we have been VERY poor and had no money to go and he can't drive because of his brain damage, but isn't that just excuses?
I know that fighting is part of every marriage and so of course is forgiveness. But I just can't tell if this is worse than every day married life for others???
Because I am disabled, there is no one out there that I can go to that can take care of me or help me if I needed to leave. So, I remain here. Confused, exhausted, in pain and stuck. I don't really have anyone to talk to either.
Please, can anyone help me sort this out???