Black sheep of the family

I have been having some problems with my family and I am at a loss of what I should do. I know what my feelings want me to do but I know that its wrong and I am so conflicted. I want God to guide my mouth and heart in the right direction cause I dont want to pop off and say something that I will regret.

I come from a family that really isnt... hmm whats the word I am looking for.... Not right in the head.
My father was very abusive and his side of the family thought it was all ok. My mother abandoned me and my sisters when we were six years old. I lived in h*** with my father until I was 15 and then decided that I wanted to live with my mother so my sister and I fought really hard on it. We moved in with our mother only to find out that she was getting married and we had to combine another full family with ours. I had never had brothers before and I def did not want another sister. Things were really difficult for me cause I am loud and crazy and fun and the family was very conservitive and silent. I was instantly outcasted. I had a bad temper from my father and was always going about angry. My mother tried to force me to go to her church and at that time she wouldnt allow me to go to a Baptist Church. Her and I got into a fight and (long story short) she called the cops on me and it landed me in a foster home. I was in two different homes in the past year. After that my family just kinda stoped caring and it seems like no matter how hard I try and what I do I will never be good enough for them. Lately things have gone from worse to.... whatever comes after that. Its really brought me so far down into a pit that I wana just curl up into a bawl and cry my eyes out. I dont know what to do because my family wont talk to me anymore. They want nothing to do with me. Im so lost someone please help me... Guide me be Gods hands....


_LisaMayfield_

[roaringkitten]

"Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you." -1 Peter 5:7


I'm so sorry to hear of your situation......I'm at a loss for words but I pray that God will heal your family....That God will restore joy in your life......That God will use all things for His glory in this mess......That you can feel Jesus wrapping His arms around you and whispering "I love you"......I wish and pray for some guidance in this situation...."God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging." ---Psalm 46

God bless friend!!!=)

[carpetmanswife]

I wish i could tell u ..do this ,this and this and everything will b ok , ..but i cant yes sounds like u have had a rough start in life BUT u are definately on the right track leaning on God and His direction. Many times bad things do happen to help us ,even make us see our despearate need we have for Him in our lives This one thing i can tell u as an absolute truth..as long as u hold on tight to Gods hand , never let Him go , come what may ... u WILL b ok in the end . And we know all things work together for good to them that love God , to them who are the called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28

Dear Lisa,

Find a Baptist Church , like you wanted to ...You need the guidance of a godly Pastor and church family. We can help you some here but God set up the local church to help Christians get their lives sorted out.Try to find a church that takes a strong stand on The King James Bible, the Word of God...you need help, not more confusion.

[Kaitlin]

Hi Lisa, I'm so sorry to hear about your rough youth. I have not experienced something like that at all, but I do have a family living in their own world and especially since I became a Christian, I don't seem to fit in... this verse is for you too:

Matt. 19:29 "And anyone and everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or lands for My name's sake will receive many [even a hundred] times more and will inherit eternal life." (Amplified Bible)

God has given me a new family, my husband's family, and I pray that God will give you another wonderful, loving and caring family as well (in any way that He chooses). True, it can never replace your own family, but you can receive the love and care that you need and deserve.
Please allow me to advise you to keep praying for your family, and don't get bitter towards them. Forgive them and let God heal you. I pray that He will strengthen you, heal and guide you... immerse yourself in His perfect love. GBU. Kaitlin.