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Hello,
This is my first post. I just read the thread on the submissive wife. Here is my story.
I am a SAHM to two boys ages 4 and 2. I greatly dislike being at home, but I refuse to let anyone else raise my children. I have been married for 5 years to a good man who loves me and our children, but he is not saved. This causes a lot of strife in our marriage because I am very involved in my church and he doesn't understand why it is so important to me. He says that I am never home (and I realize it could be very easy to get out of balance in this area). I feel that I am always at home because I stay home all day long with the children. I am gone two evenings a week for bible study and then on Sunday morning for church. I am so on fire for God right now and it is a big part of my life right now. It is diffiuclt for us to find anything in common to talk about. He says, "I don't want to hear you preaching to me!". I feel like he is not fulfilling his biblical duties as a husband and a father. Our kids hear the way that he talks about church and they have developed his mentality about it being boring. I am believing God for his salvation, but I do not want to be one of the women that lives her WHOLE life in strife to have her husband saved on his death bed. Don't get me wrong, being saved at any point before death is wonderful, but I am only 30 years old and I can believe God for 70!! Oh Lord, give me grace! One of the really big problems this is causing is lack of intimacy (if you're blushing, stop here! LOL!). I have always had a larger than normal personal space bubble, but now that I am more aware of the lack of husbandly leadership in our home, I really do not want much to do with him. I love him, I love him very much, but I cringe every time he touches me. I am aware that it doesn't help that I have a very needy and clingy 2 year old hanging on me 24 hours a day. Yes, 24 hours, I have to sleep with or near him and he just weaned from the breast. I have zero minutes a day to spend without the company of another human being. I recently started fixing up a prayer room, but have had no time to get in and spend time alone with God. Not sure what is going on. I try to rationalize it in my mind. I wear a lot of hats. I am a mother, a wife, a college student, and trying to fulfill God call on my life (if only I knew what that was!). I wish I could crawl under a rock!
Just a little venting a guess
Thanks and God Bless you all!
This is my first post. I just read the thread on the submissive wife. Here is my story.
I am a SAHM to two boys ages 4 and 2. I greatly dislike being at home, but I refuse to let anyone else raise my children. I have been married for 5 years to a good man who loves me and our children, but he is not saved. This causes a lot of strife in our marriage because I am very involved in my church and he doesn't understand why it is so important to me. He says that I am never home (and I realize it could be very easy to get out of balance in this area). I feel that I am always at home because I stay home all day long with the children. I am gone two evenings a week for bible study and then on Sunday morning for church. I am so on fire for God right now and it is a big part of my life right now. It is diffiuclt for us to find anything in common to talk about. He says, "I don't want to hear you preaching to me!". I feel like he is not fulfilling his biblical duties as a husband and a father. Our kids hear the way that he talks about church and they have developed his mentality about it being boring. I am believing God for his salvation, but I do not want to be one of the women that lives her WHOLE life in strife to have her husband saved on his death bed. Don't get me wrong, being saved at any point before death is wonderful, but I am only 30 years old and I can believe God for 70!! Oh Lord, give me grace! One of the really big problems this is causing is lack of intimacy (if you're blushing, stop here! LOL!). I have always had a larger than normal personal space bubble, but now that I am more aware of the lack of husbandly leadership in our home, I really do not want much to do with him. I love him, I love him very much, but I cringe every time he touches me. I am aware that it doesn't help that I have a very needy and clingy 2 year old hanging on me 24 hours a day. Yes, 24 hours, I have to sleep with or near him and he just weaned from the breast. I have zero minutes a day to spend without the company of another human being. I recently started fixing up a prayer room, but have had no time to get in and spend time alone with God. Not sure what is going on. I try to rationalize it in my mind. I wear a lot of hats. I am a mother, a wife, a college student, and trying to fulfill God call on my life (if only I knew what that was!). I wish I could crawl under a rock!
Just a little venting a guess
Thanks and God Bless you all!