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Well, God's important commandment honor your father and mother.' But, to me it seems so difficult. I mean my father did not care for me since childhood. Am 26 years running now. And I still feel the prick. A father is supposed to be a child's pillar. It hurts even more to than a person having his father no more rather to know he still exists but yet don't care.
Well, to make long story short, I forgave my father and though I was brought up by my mother's side and her relatives (as well as mine), I went to live with him (my father). It was kinda risky. I had no strings attached with regards to intentions of taking his money or property. But, definitely, I made him understand in a nice manner that the family could be well adjusted ..etc. However, he made my life a living hell mentally playing games and removing his frustrations. Well, my mother then decided to come along to live with him who told me he was acting too mental, showing off his owned house and his newly brought equipments. Also a lot of orders, like he was too bossy and that too on the first day after she reconsidered living with him. So I left the house and my mother to her mother's , while myself, began staying alone in a small apartment in another city. I just had a online friend who was a catholic, though being a girl who supported me in getting a job, nor would surely be dead. Well, did get a low paying salary job, at least enough for surviving. Lived with a person who we barely had contact with on phone, who was more than a mother to me. We were far off acquaintances as I was just searching a job, but we became friends. Unbelievable, but true. Going back to my mother's side place to live was banned since I chose to live with my father who ultimately acted like the biggest jerk that ever lived. Being without a father, in my childhood was just too much to bear and further being ridiculed and bullied upon at school so much that I used to pray that God to end my life. Flunking from school, suicidal thoughts became a part of my lifestyle. I did not know the basic things in life and was taught all the wrong things to be done. My elders were quite reserved ( besides my aunt) and they certainly used to haunt me. I used to lock myself up and swear ;etc. Trust issues towards people was so weak that even if a person tried to help it was always like 'is he taking advantage of me?' But today I have witnessed that friends are a lot more better than close relatives, as per my experience. Ok, I asked one of the shepherd of my father's church who was kinda counselling me 'What should I do now?' The answer was 'It is God's will to be in your father's house.' The person gives me an example of a man on a deserted island gone crazy. He meant he (my father) being without my mother for many years gone crazy. But my father always drops the ball and acts like a mental patient. So, the main question is 'Is it right for someone to live in an abusive home and show love while get himself mentally abused?' Well, I am opting for 'No!' I mean if someone came to me, I know the pain and would definitely as a human try to help the person. A person who has knowledge may understand the situation, but a person who has gone through something feels the person being in his once shoes. So is the church elder right or am I??? Please be honest and open with your answer. Thanks .
Well, to make long story short, I forgave my father and though I was brought up by my mother's side and her relatives (as well as mine), I went to live with him (my father). It was kinda risky. I had no strings attached with regards to intentions of taking his money or property. But, definitely, I made him understand in a nice manner that the family could be well adjusted ..etc. However, he made my life a living hell mentally playing games and removing his frustrations. Well, my mother then decided to come along to live with him who told me he was acting too mental, showing off his owned house and his newly brought equipments. Also a lot of orders, like he was too bossy and that too on the first day after she reconsidered living with him. So I left the house and my mother to her mother's , while myself, began staying alone in a small apartment in another city. I just had a online friend who was a catholic, though being a girl who supported me in getting a job, nor would surely be dead. Well, did get a low paying salary job, at least enough for surviving. Lived with a person who we barely had contact with on phone, who was more than a mother to me. We were far off acquaintances as I was just searching a job, but we became friends. Unbelievable, but true. Going back to my mother's side place to live was banned since I chose to live with my father who ultimately acted like the biggest jerk that ever lived. Being without a father, in my childhood was just too much to bear and further being ridiculed and bullied upon at school so much that I used to pray that God to end my life. Flunking from school, suicidal thoughts became a part of my lifestyle. I did not know the basic things in life and was taught all the wrong things to be done. My elders were quite reserved ( besides my aunt) and they certainly used to haunt me. I used to lock myself up and swear ;etc. Trust issues towards people was so weak that even if a person tried to help it was always like 'is he taking advantage of me?' But today I have witnessed that friends are a lot more better than close relatives, as per my experience. Ok, I asked one of the shepherd of my father's church who was kinda counselling me 'What should I do now?' The answer was 'It is God's will to be in your father's house.' The person gives me an example of a man on a deserted island gone crazy. He meant he (my father) being without my mother for many years gone crazy. But my father always drops the ball and acts like a mental patient. So, the main question is 'Is it right for someone to live in an abusive home and show love while get himself mentally abused?' Well, I am opting for 'No!' I mean if someone came to me, I know the pain and would definitely as a human try to help the person. A person who has knowledge may understand the situation, but a person who has gone through something feels the person being in his once shoes. So is the church elder right or am I??? Please be honest and open with your answer. Thanks .