learning about ourselves is the hardest thing...

[Angel-A]

Why am I like that?
Why I believe in lie? I don’t get it, I don’t understand it.
What a secret is in the cross?
I’m starting to see that we all completely lies and it is nothing what we can really do. I already try so many things, and changes but still do the same mistakes.
Can I ever be good? Is that even possible? I feel so confuse all the time – unable to distinguish good from bad. Can we really do anything good? I don’t think so.
How stupid I was all this time thinking that I’m helping others by giving them advices, listen to them, or giving a gifts.
Anything of that can be question and it can be easy turn into bad.
Bad tree can’t give good fruit.
So - how to change a bad tree into a good one?
We can’t do anything by our own will, and that is the hardest to take in. We can’t!
The only thing we can do is to learn to trust and to listen the word of God believing that it can change us – nothing else. But can we do that? Isn’t that too much for our selfish nature?
I wasn’t happy to have Dawid’s sister here – I knew that will be arguments between us. I wasn’t sure as well how I should act in all of that.
The question was – Do I want them to find out who I really am or should I be silence for few weeks for the sake of situation. Since I don’t know what good is – I did both but mostly silence.
Did I learn anything form that experience?
That - I’m able of any kinds of behaviour from talking behind someone back to expecting ‘good’ behaviour from others. I did all those mistakes – I usually didn’t like others to do.
For hours on end I spent talking about not present members of our family in a good and a bad way – sometimes being agreeable to accusation of others – another protecting them from any more accusation.
I regret saying nasty comments about their style of clothing – I called them the Adam’s Family – since I saw them in black mostly and their main colour in the house is black. We were laughing from that but I sensed back then that it was horribly wrong and I should do something about it.
[FONT=&quot]I confest my sin to people I was laughing with – but I have a feeling that this piece of information will be used against me one day. May be that is a good thing – defentely it will teach me to keep my mouth shot [/FONT]

 

[richie_2uk]

Well I guess its not all about you. your life is about God and you. Try learning about you through God and with God. maybe the picture of you will show wider. And you will learn some new things that you may never seen. The Cross tells the real you. Learn the real reason of love, and what that love meant, and what it stands for. The cross holds answers to your, why's? what's? when? and how's. Look to the cross and ask. look to the cross and seek. We can live, we can hope, we can breath, through the trust of the one who gave his life on the cross for us mankind. true strength comes from only one source. Jesus. but you have to put your first step forward to request it. It's hard to live life on ones own. our own strength is not capable to with stand the load.

We don't live a lie. yet lies are an illusion to our lives. its covered by another lie, to falsify the true picture of your life. But God has beaten falsehood, and lies. By giving true discernment. That's of course if you have true belief in God. Also God has beaten lies, by giving us the free will to believe what is right and wrong in such things. So that we can choose ourselves and not leave it ALL up to God. That's the beauty of free will.

we can be good, many people just want to be better. But God don't want you to be successful. God don't want you to work for him either. God wants you to work with him, so that you can find answers, so you can walk a great journey with him. God has only but one path. Its people that makes many paths from it. God is not confusing, as he speaks to those who hear him. He has told nothing but the truth. He has not hidden anything from us. But lies, deceit, falsehood, is the father of this world.

The creation of man was no mistake by God. The mistakes came from man itself. From his own mind, his own heart his own will. Yet we try to cover up our sins and mistakes. Not realising God is standing there watching. We are blinded the enemy. How long you want to take that kind of living is up to you. But all God is saying, " is Come " come as you are. and accept him in your heart. and let him put you on his one right path he has for you. The free will is your for the taking. But choose what you know deep down is right.

 

[RedTent]

I think it is very difficult to know yourself. Even when we learn something about ourselves, it is easier to ignore it.

Haven't you known something about someone you are close to that they don't understand about themselves? I know a man who is absolutely brilliant but has had little formal education. He spends his life proving to himself he is fine without the education. He drives aggressively, he wants to know how much formal education each person he meets has, he is constantly proving he has learned something. He makes you want to put your arms around him and assure him he can relax with his brilliance, we know that about him.

Being honest starts, first, with being honest with ourselves. Have you noticed there is a sort of dialogue you have with yourself all day long? Your mind is never completely still. Have you ever listened to yourself?

I used to have a dialogue of worry. "suppose that were to happen" Or a dialogue of how terribly I have been treated by someone and why didn't I say this, THAT would have fixed them. Or a dialogue of judging someone. These things aren't from God, and we need to live our lives under God. We need to give God that dialogue we have with ourselves, too.

 

[richie_2uk]

Just remember a certificate or a trophy or a medal or some highest reward, will not make you a know all. They are just atchievements. To know yourself? Go through the one who created you in the first place.

 

[Lucy68]

I love your honesty about yourself .

Your last line made me laugh because I've been trying to learn that SAME thing...how to keep my mouth shut.

This is the beginning of having the wisdom of God....seeing in ourselves things that are not godly and need to be removed. The book of James has a lot to say about our mouths...and most of it bad. We have a very hard time controlling them.

Somewhere in the Bible it says we will have to give an account of every single word we've said. How scary. This should lead us to repentance and also the determination to speak only 'building the kingdom' words and not 'tearing down the kingdom' words.

I've tried going a whole day with only saying positive things about people....it is INCREDIBLY hard. There are some situations that we have to speak up...like if someone is in danger; but these are rare. Instead we need to talk about all the good things we see in people and not the bad. Encouraging words encourage people to be better. I need to remember that too