The Day I Gave Up

[Ragamuffin]

I don't need advice. I know where I need to improve. I just need prayer and someone to stand in agreement. We are blending a family. My bio son is a teen and my husbands bio kids are two teens and two young ones. We have had several problems with the teens. My bio son is getting older and beginning to mature out of it. My husbands teens are plowing full force ahead right smack dad in the middle of it. We have had many struggles because of it. I have developed attitudes and feelings that a Godly mother should not have towards her children bio or not. I know God has set me here, but I feel like I have totally demolished his plan. For my own, my husbands, my marriages and my families sake, I keep a prayer journal. God always speaks swiftly and clearly when I write to him there. I have shaved off the last part of my prayer to him to include in this post so you can know what I need agreement in.
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If it is compassion I need more of for the kids, Please give me a portion of yours. I still remember what you told me in the suburban that day we were all driving before we were married and I was so indecisive about whether to marry him or not. You told me this is where I was supposed to be. I feel like I have made a big mess out of Your plan though. I can’t do this on my own and I certainly can’t do this without feeling like my husband really cares for me. Please allow me to feel it today. I don’t like who I am or who I have become. Help me change my own attitude. Help me get things back on your track again. My hands are up with everything, husband and kids. It is in your hands now. Please take it from me and take control. I love you with every piece of me
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You see, I can't fix myself. But I can't continue my family with this attitude and these feelings. It is eating me up and goes against everything I know is right. Only God can change me and make me to mother I know I need to be. So I need your prayer and agreement that things will change in me. I am believing that only good things will follow that.
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[imoss]

You got it. You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you. I will tell you, the blended family that I saw work the very best was where the bio parent did the punishing only. the rules where given by both but if there was deliberate disobedience then the bio parent was responsible for the punishment. this worked very well. Bless you as you deal with these challenges and Bless you to keep in touch with yourself & not lose who YOu are in the lives of these beautiful teens. I struggle with only 2 of my own some days & I just pray for encouragement to you & tell you to take a bit of you time every day as well. I've prayed for compassion for you too. Praise the Lord who knows the big picture & do not be discouraged or let your heart be weary for the LOrd has good things in store for you and your beautiful family.

 

[Stand_Up_4_God]

I don't have any children, and have never been married....so I can't really speak personally on this issue...what I can and will do though, is pray. It's all I know to do, but that's a VERY strong tool. Be blessed.