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After 16 long years of marriage I am to the point where I want out. We married very young 16 and 19 and we've grown*apart. It happened so quickly but in all honesty neither of us wanted to get married. We thought it would be the right thing since we had a baby. Since then we've had a few more children and I've tried to put up with his lifestyle but I am too old and to busy to wait for him to grow up. Its like because he provides however he can, thats all he needs to do. In those 16 years he hasn't changed, still drinks every weekend instead of having family quality time. I've tried getting involved in the church but he's catholic and I've prefer Christian church better. He tells me that its not the right belief. So to avoid arguments I just stay home. Im not perfect myself, I have a bad temper and I've given up trying to make things work. But he wants to wait until the kids are grown before we separate, the youngest is 3. I would rather be alone than to feel alone with him. Ive prayed about our situation for years and nothing has changed. I think i should just accept that maybe Jesus wants me to live this way, but it just hurts even more to think he would. Just writing my feelings here, I know there may be a lot of fill ins I could have left out. Thank you for your time, any advice would be greatly appreciated.