Hey SJR gbu.First of all those thoughts r not from God.There is always a better way,because God is the way and the life.When things seem difficult 2 us,they r never 4 God.But im glad u r reaching out 2 us.I hope 2 see u in the rooms 2 pray 4 you and chat more.If u have a Bible open it 2 Romans 8:37-39 it tells us that we cant be seperated from Gods love.He has a great future 4 u 2.U might not see it right now but God will reveal it 2 u soon.the Bible 2 think on these things lovely,of virtue,good report,noble and fix our eyes on Jesus.The truth of the matter is,because satan is full of lies is u r a treasure,valuable,very useful2 God and mankind,after all God created u 4 his good pleasure.Your not alone,many of us have felt the way u do,God comforted us in the storm and he will do the same 4 u.Now 2 end,I want u 2 take a deep breath,smile because God loves u with no conditions,let the peace of God rule in your heart,tell satan to go to hell where he belongs and that u r more than a conquerer in Jesus Christ who strengthens u.Get into a good Bible based church,get into a good Bible study and some sort of church ministry,maybe feeding the poor,visiting people,when u dopeople will thank you and u will have the chance 2 see how important u r 2 others and how God uses us.Hope 2 see u soon.Keep the chin up Bro and study Gods Word,it will build your faith and trust in him.