Poems, thoughts, songs

When I prayed for you yesterday,
I heard God say
"it's going to be okay"
that was for my own peace of mind
for you, that he would be with you,
that you are going to be okay.

Here is a scripture for you,
to give you encouragement.

Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.​

[FONT=&quot]Philippians 4:6-8

[/FONT]Be anxious for nothing,
but in everything by prayer and supplication,
with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;
and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding,
will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.


Finally, brethren, whatever things are true,
whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure,
whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report,
if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.​

[FONT=&quot]2 Timothy 1:7

For God has not given us a spirit of fear,
but of power and of love and of a sound mind.[/FONT]​

Do not be swayed by the storms on
your left side, nor by your right.
Walk forward and keep walking.
Keep your eyes on the Lord,
do not take them off!
and the peace that passes all undestanding
will cover you,
and you will rest under his wings
of safety and protection.

For he has plans to prosper you,
and not to harm you,
but to give you a hope and a future.​

If I can't make it this time around,
I can still plan for a later date,
that way I can be more prepared.

I know that you're tired of waiting for me,
and I know you've done a lot more
then I could ask of you.
I can't ask you to wait a little longer,
because that would be selfish.
Everything is limited, with a short time span.

So you don't have to wait for me,
if you don't want to,
I mean if I can't make it.

but I will do what I can.​

It's either this or homelessness.
This is no joke.
everything goes into this.
I could be there to support you,
but when I come back,
I have nothing..

So I'm hoping that you will have
some form of forgiveness for this.

if not then I understand,
I am not trying not to go,
I just don't know if you want to wait for me..​

yep it's pretty embarrassing,
I live in the city,
have to move out soon,
can't even afford deposit for rent,
can't earn enough to afford a living,

When something pops up that I can
afford it has to get in the way,
as far as time line goes,
that I can be there.
This is so embarrassing.

I am sorry.​

if it is important to you,
and the last straw,
where there are no more
chances given,
then I will be there.
I will put you first.

Just tell me,
and I will be there.​

if you don't care,
then I won't go.

I love you.​

I love you
by me

Thank you for being so understanding,
and for letting me know that it was alright.
Thank you for being so thoughtful all of the time,
and for all the love and patience that you have
with me.

I am sorry that I thought that you wouldn't
want to wait for me,
I should have known better,
you are the kind of man who loves,
and will wait for someone he loves.
I'm a bit overwhelmed, my heart is touched by this,
and it makes me love you more and more everyday.

You're the kind of man who
goes beyond the extra mile just to show his love,
the kind of man who puts his whole heart
and excellence into everything he does,
just so the person he loves gets his best.

I don't deserve your love,
but you give all of it.
I love you.
and I appreciate everything you do.

I guess that's why I try to pay you back
with poetry and songs for making me feel so special, so loved.
I love you.

Thank you for showing me what it means to love, and be loved.
and I'm sorry for always making demands and being selfish,
and for not trusting you sometimes. I should have known better.
You never cease to surprise me with more and more love everyday,
my heart aches thinking about it.
I love you.

I appreciate you, and am so grateful for you,
I love you.

​

I hope everything is okay
with you, I felt the need
to pray for you today.
I felt like you might be going through
something..
I'm sorry I didn't say much earlier,
I was at work.
I want you to know that you are on my mind,
and you are in my heart all the time.

I just want you to know that I love you,
and that I care about what you are going through.

I want to tell you that you are going
to make it through to the end of it,
you are going to be okay.

God's got a plan for your life,
and it's beyond what you know.
He's got great things in store,
because of your obedience to trust him.
It will be worth it.
Trust him, and hang on to his word like a bulldog with a
T-bone steak.
He never fails, he will not fail you.
You are going to make it.
You got this.

I love you, hub.​

(a scripture to encourage you, I love you)

in the future there is laid up for me the crown of righteousness,
which the Lord, the righteous Judge,
will award to me on that day;
and not only to me,
but also to all who have loved His appearing.
2 Tim 4:8​

...A little too personal - stuff
by me

I'm ashamed of myself,
I'm ashamed with how bad I make
you feel about yourself..

I don't think I really ever
had much of a normal teenage life,
as far as sexuality goes at least,
that part has always been
suppressed. I never really got to
go to parties and drink, or experience
a lot of things people experienced.
I never experienced any of those things,
if I had any thing it was always a secret,
distant and short, because of fear.

Soon I became this uptight, insecure, self strict
afraid of love and intimacy, girl who was always afraid
to do the wrong thing.
I think that's why I act childish,
and try to suppress intimacy,
and I try to follow my own rules,
and I make impossible demands on others.

That's why I freaked out last year,
when you did this huge act of love'
for me, and part of it
had to do with sexuality,
I hadn't realized this was
a huge thing for you too,
because you don't do this
for just anybody unless you are
willing to go all in..

but I need you to know..
that I loved it,
and I appreciated it.
I just wish I handled it better.

I need you to know this but I also need you to
know that I am really proud of all the
wonderful things you have done for me,
that it made me really happy,
I think you are really very intelligent,
talented, and a strong person to
get through the things you got through.
I believe you have got more creativity
inside you than you know.

You are worth more to me
than you think.
You make me feel helpless for you,
and desperate for you so that
I am always praying for you,
but that's a good thing,
because you drew me to God.

I feel like you are that missing puzzle piece
in my life, and I need you here.

I want to be intimate and share
my love with you,
and never deny you when you
need me,
I want you to be the only one for me.

that's how I feel,
you already have me.
I love you.

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