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Becoming 30. Very depressing. Always find myself wondering how did I get this far. Well most likely by the grace of God,some purpose I must have ......trying to find that out. I almost always wish I was more in control of my life. Some say we do control our destiny, but do we? Do we really? It's dizzying to remember moments in life on that little movie screen of the mind, and watch these moments and how quickly they went and then fade. I imagine heaven would give that type of feeling that never fades. And an emotion that is so exciting, one cannot fathom, such as hearing a song you haven't heard in 10+ yrs and reliving the last moment you heard it and holding onto the feeling it once gave you.......but that too fades. W cannot fathom heaven , nor can we leave behind something to be remembered... especialy if you are a nobody. What kind of love can truely be givin if that person has never truely been loved? Is that even possible? Perhaps not because that person won't be able to recognize that love. Lord, is it I?
