If At All?

I lie in this space between a bed and a wall
I wonder to myself: Am I normal at all?
I think about myself & those around me
I think about my past, people gone fast
I think I'm over thinking, thinking to much
Trivial thoughts, useless ideas and such
I wish it felt correct to be within my skin
To know true peace and acceptance
To know wisdom and forgiveness
To know a life without sin
But this is the reality...
I'm not happy with my mentality
I'm scarred by rejection and my own irrationality
I'm foolish: Driving my heart in neutrality
I'm silently angry, at times ignoring basic morality
How many times must I repent?
I shift my weight in this space between a bed and a wall
I continue to wonder to myself: Am I normal? If at all?

Honestly one of the most personal poem I have read

You have just described my life. The thoughts in my head, daily.

Superb song. Only, you are not rejected by all. Take heart, and find peace as you continue to grow in the Lord. He loves you and many will be pray for you, thanks to this shared prayer.