Disconnecting...

[Rachel20]

I've had a great time at ChristianChat. I think I am among it's prolific users.

I've utilized chat, the forums - (I've posted in nearly every sub forum) participated in the chat groups, discussions and made some really cool friends.

However, in recent times, I find that the discord between the online world and my real life has taken a surreal quality to it.

I've never had a problem staying away from cc but just the realization of how much weight it bears with regards to emotion and time in my life has provoked me to reconsider my priorities.

When I first started out as a member here, I knew next to nothing about Christianity. My growth in knowledge has been exceptionally stellar and I rather enjoyed it.
However, I've come to that stage where I am no longer learning. It was good to know the different facets of religion but it doesn't necessarily teach you about God Himself.

It's easy to get bogged down by other people's views and interpretations of who God really is. Far more of it is proving one's own point rather than gaining any real value.

I've noticed that stage of stagnancy in myself and I think it's time to "clean up house" if that makes sense.

For a long time, I tried to isolate myself from the outside world. As a Christian, I was afraid to let "unbelievers" take me away from God.

All my friends are non believers and I didn't want to "corrupt" myself and lose faith in God in ANY way. Moving away from an atheist worldview, I wanted nothing more to do with it.
I disconnected myself from the real world.

However, it's always been my real friends who've helped me when I am down - who've shown me such warmth and love that it's crazy.

I've long used cc as a medium of escape , but I think I no longer need to anymore. I'm friends with the people I love, beyond cc and outside of it.

I am finally going to gain the time I always wanted, to do what I want. I am in search of the elusive idea that could benefit society and make a difference.

I want to make a difference badly! Not just talk about it or spew out monologues. With that in view, I want nothing to be an impediment in my mission. I want to do something worthwhile with my life. Make every breath count.

Even if it means giving up on something I love - it's worth the sacrifice now.

So I feel like disconnecting. (I just want to make my post count 1000 )

I know God will never leave me nor forsake me. He made me a lionhearted girl ^_^


If any of you wish to keep in touch or something - we could discuss or whatever, in PM. Maybe. Let me know.

I am still considering and praying how I want to get this done with...so till then

Peace out!

 

[Rachel20]

"They make it look so easy, connecting with another human being. It’s like no one told them it’s the hardest thing in the world."
-- Dexter Morgan.



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[zeroturbulence]

I'm sorry to see you go Rachel. I hope you'll be back.

 

[Jimbone]

I understand sister and wish you the best. I thank you for sharing you testimony with us, and for reading mine and understanding it. I pray God guides you for His purpose and blesses you in all you do in His mighty name. Thank you for sharing your life and your walk with Christ with us on here and may the Holy Spirit continue to teach you how you can bring Him what little glory we are capable of to His name. You know where we're at, I hope to see you around again sometime.

 

[Rachel20]

I'm sorry to see you go Rachel. I hope you'll be back.

Thanks Zero!

Honestly, talking to another cc user just now, and drats my heart feels broken. She was a big sister and shicks, this is hard.

Also, I just have to be a drama mama about these things you know?

Like a boss yo.

All that hormones! Estrogen FTW!!!!~

 

[Rachel20]

I understand sister and wish you the best. I thank you for sharing you testimony with us, and for reading mine and understanding it. I pray God guides you for His purpose and blesses you in all you do in His mighty name. Thank you for sharing your life and your walk with Christ with us on here and may the Holy Spirit continue to teach you how you can bring Him what little glory we are capable of to His name. You know where we're at, I hope to see you around again sometime.

Thank you so much Jim.


Can I tell you? - you have really touched my heart.

I just love your posts. I love how we share a connection in our testimonies and I love that you saw it.

In Jesus, there is rest and meaning. There's nothing outside of Him and you are wonderful! I pray God uses your life even more to bring encouragement to a lot of other people.

*hugs*

I am still wondering whether I want to delete my account, but I know where you'll be - encouraging others!

 

[Jullianna]

Godspeed, Rachel. I understand your drive and passion.

You have been a blessing to the forums - a fresh, challenging voice. You will be missed.

 

[Rachel20]

Thanks a lot Julliana!

I love your threads too - you've always given me an opportunity to open windows and shake mirages

Thanks a lot and God bless you.

 

[Rachel20]

I really apologize for all the drama... I always do this and regret it. (Drats you 21 y/o you.)

(1000 posts though? )

I just had an interesting situation the other time at a photo shoot.

The make up artist was trying to tell me about different skin tones.I always thought - "clearly I have a warm tone" , except he raised my wrist to the sun and said tell me the colour of your veins.

I just couldn't make out. Apparently if it's blue, you're cool toned and if it's green, it's warm toned.

Except I couldn't tell about mine. They looked blue-ish green-ish puple-ish? So I said it, "Purple".

The look on his face was epic. So here's my hand (it's got a lot of bruises and scratches - thanks to all the wrestling fights with my dog

Is it blue or green or what?





PS - Apparently I am neutral ^_^

 

[gypsygirl]

well, i think you already know you won't be able to get rid of me quite that easily.

you're an inspiration, a breath of fresh air, and one who seldom fails to make me smile.

and i am really looking forward to see what God has in store for you in these next chapters of your adventures.

love you girlie. *hugs*

edit in ref to the pic: not sure you're exactly someone i'd call neutral. ; p

 

[Lynx]

Rachel: I hear you about making a difference. You can make a lot of money and lose it when you die. You can make a lot of friends, but you'll lose them when you're broke (or when you quit facebook... depending on what kind of friends you have.) But if you make a difference in someone else's life, that's forever.

You'll notice a lot of rich people turn to philanthropy. Mostly because they got rich, but it didn't satisfy them the way the world said it would.

 

[Rachel20]

@gyspygirl - Thanks so much!! You make me smile too. Love ya! You are one cool lady.


@ Lynx - Great words there! Thanks so much. ^_^

 

[ChandlerFan]

Take care, Rachel

 

[Grace-Like-Rain]

Have loved getting to know you Rachel. Godspeed to you and blessings abundant in your life!

 

[wisebeardman]

well i hope you don't leave... I actually like you.

 

[Rachel20]

Thanks for the well wishes guys.

I thought a lot about it, but the process of paying 5$ for reactivation was a good deterrant (It trumps raging hormones any day)


I am glad I got to put a definitive line and say I need to get off from here.

I will mostly not be checking cc anymore for a while, except to post poetry - which I've taken a deep interest in

I finally got to work on my villanelle poem. I just hope the irony here in me getting more time would not mean me spending it , staring at the skies and writing poetry.

(It looks like that might happen, and so please pray that it would not be the case!)

I feel like I need to get my passion and zest back for life. To bounce back and work hard. Not to be starry eyed and dreamy for long.


So thanks a lot and God bless you! I wish you guys all the best too and hope I can stay away to return with good news.
If I have ever inadvertently hurt any of you in anyway, I ask forgiveness

With Christ's love and peace to all of you,
Rachel

 

[Rachel20]

well i hope you don't leave... I actually like you.

YESS!!!!!! 5 minute EDIT time is DONE.


This post is framed.


I like you too wise guy


You take care ok? Enjoy life ! Go hug a puppy. May God bless you and keep you happy!


Here's a hug from me to you ----> (((*wisebeardman*)))


PS - the virtual world can be really limited as well as liberating. :| Irony.

 

[Lynx]

I can just picture Rachel entering her 1,000th post... yes, we made it!

Oh shoot, there's one more thing I wanted to say... but it would ruin the perfect thousand! What to do, what to do...

 

[Shouryu]

Whyyyyyy not just take a sabbatical? Instead of a permanent exit, just leave CC for a while. Then come back and say hello every now and then.

Just like a church, right? You can leave a church for a different fellowship, but then come back and say hi every few months. Why delete and cut ties?

 

[Roh_Chris]

Did she "pull the plug" on all of us.