infatuated for 4 years

[achee]

Its actually a pretty, really, really long story so i'm gonna make my 'issue' short.
I have been...or still am...deeply infatuated to my chemistry teacher since i was 14, and now that i'm 18, he's always in my thoughts. after i graduated highschool, which was two years ago, i haven't seen him till now. But..seriously, even though i had all sorts of problems in school and in the house i've moved in he still pops in my mind no matter how tired and restless i am.
I prayed ever since i met him that the Lord would remove my feelings because it didn't seem right, he was 21 when i first met him, and i was 13 back then.,so really even if he looked more like 17, he's still old and we're not...there's just no way we can be together. But even without seeing him for two years, no connections whatsoever, why is it that there still something?
I've seen his picture earlier, it just randomly popped in my facebook wall and it really, like literally made me fall on my set, like seriously, i fell down. And another feeling i got was...i wanted so much to see him. And i dislike this feeling.
its making me depressed all over again, like during my high school years where i tried so hard to conceal what i feel and yet the feeling of longingness for that person is so hard to control.
I just..maybe i just want to say this to people who won't judge me because i fell for a teacher. maybe this isnt really LOVE yet, i'm too young to experience that....or am i really?
thoughts about this please?

 

[JonahLynx]

Perhaps your desire for a relationship lead to your mind imprinting what you want onto him. It may be that he has certain qualities which are attractive to you, but since you don't know him very well and have not even had contact for 2 years, your imagination is creating most of those feelings. In this situation, I would simply recommend continuing your life as normal and trying to avoid entertaining your imagination. When someone else comes along, then you will quickly forget about this teacher... you will probably even forget after awhile on your own.

 

[tourist]

Perhaps your desire for a relationship lead to your mind imprinting what you want onto him. It may be that he has certain qualities which are attractive to you, but since you don't know him very well and have not even had contact for 2 years, your imagination is creating most of those feelings. In this situation, I would simply recommend continuing your life as normal and trying to avoid entertaining your imagination. When someone else comes along, then you will quickly forget about this teacher... you will probably even forget after awhile on your own.

Actually, this post makes a lot of sense.

 

[zeroturbulence]

So now you are 18 and he is 25... go get him!

 

[VioletReigns]

Hi Sister Achee, Google infatuation vs love and you will find some great information that can help you understand your dilemma. Briefly, it explains how infatuation is all about you, you, you and although it feels like passion, it is an emotional addiction and generates insecurity. It creates unrealistic expectations. Love, on the other hand, compliments each other's strengths and accepts imperfections and weaknesses. Real love is about you and your partner patiently working on what's best for both of you.

I hope this helps you, dear.