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I've known this girl for a bit over 6 months, and I really like her. So at the end of last year I told her how I felt, and she basically said she wasn't ready for a relationship, that she was afraid of getting hurt...
But then we started doing lots of one-on-one things together - ( although they were never called dates or thought of as dates, I thought maybe I should give this another go.
So about a month ago I find out that in fact she knows that I still like her. So I send her an letter telling her how I feel, and urging her to just give a relationship a go.
So we met up to chat about it about 4\ weeks ago. She told me that all of her friends think that we should give a relationship a go. She even said that part of her really wanted to, but at the end of the day she was too afraid, and she felt that this fear and anxiety would cause the relationship to fail. But she's never been in a relationship before, and I tried to convince her of that...
Anyway, we decided we'd talk about it again, and a week ago we did.
She tells me that although all of her friends are urging her to give it a go, and although part of her wants to give it a go, she feels she just can't go through with it. She says that she's 'happy' being single, and that she 'knows' that if she enters a relationship she'll be constantly stressed and upset. (which I really don't understand how she can think that). And she says that because she 'knows' she'll be constantly stressed and upset, that the relationship won't work out.
But we're really good friends. We get along really well, we enjoy spending time with each-other, and we both really trust each-other - and she agrees with all of this. We're both Christian, and we both share a strong love and connection over God.
What should I do? I don't want to give up, knowing that part of her wants to give this a go (even if its only a small part)... I want to convince her that we would be good together, and that it would be worth giving it a go. She's never had a boyfriend, so I just don't understand where she is getting all these assumptions and fears from...
She said that whenever she's with me part of her really thinks that we should give it a go, but whenever we're not together she always gets those feelings of fear and dread... and I guess that's why she's said 'no''..
I've prayed to God alot about this, and I still feel that we'd be really good for eachother. I've prayed that at the least she come to understand that being in a relationship doesn't neccessarily mean pain and suffering, that it can be really beautiful.... but i think due to past experiences with guys, she's afraid. (She apparently fell in love with one guy, who totally led her on and then got a girlfriend, and that apparently caused her ALOT of pain.) But she's over him now.
Our friendship is so strong already - and we are still really good friends now - we still do things together, we still hang out lots, despite what has happened, so of course I am extremely grateful that God blessed with me such a great friend.
I guess its just the idea that part of her wants to go out with me that is really getting to me. I'll be honest, I've being praying and thinking alot about it, and I can see good and bad sides to whatever I do. I feel I should give it some time, but, and this is going to sound really selfish, if I wait too long what if someone else comes along? But if i keep trying I might push her away. And if I give up completely.... well i'll always wonder what if....
Do any of you have any ideas as to what i should do? Of course I never want to lose the friendship that God blessed us with, and of course I'm greatful that it is still as strong as ever, but nevertheless do you have any advice?